Just in time

If you've taken any management related course you would know what JIT means. But for me it means something else. Last weekend I was contemplating some options. I had a message from student services concerning my enrollment. They wanted me to drop two units since my oasis showed that i had a Fantastic for Introduction to Programming Environments AKA c programming. The same one i took supp for in december and up until now the result was not out, or atleast not updated in my oasis. So the deal was to wait until today to see if it comes out or not. If its out and I passed then i won't have to drop the units if not then i'll be taking only two units this sem.

I didnt want to delay my exit from this school and extend the time i intend staying here to another sem or year. Curtin can be quite funny with the units they offer per sem so its better to get it over with. Part of me wanted to do just two units so i'm not so stressed, the other part was thinking of how i'll get scolded by the big guy.

So today i went to know my fate. I met the pregnant lady at counter 4 who hasn't yet given me my mail. She wasn't there on friday when the deal was made so she was a bit blur but the other co-stars in the friday drama told me i, wait for it... i passed my supp so i dont have to drop any units. It was that simple. I was confused for a nano second but she said it again, you passed your supp so you don't have to drop the two units, but it has not been updated on your oasis.

Given the situation i felt like saying apa la this curtin, wait until last minute to release my result, i know i did well. But I was humbled and with a simple thank you i walked out of G1.

Now i feel responsible for the units i'm taking now to do the best i can so that i don't get into this situation again. Which means {by God's grace} limited time online. Like i said, sacrifices.

Thank God

~shalom~

Almost there

My holiday is coming to an end. Its been an eventful three months. I enjoyed most of it. Its funny you know, I came back on a sunday. and straight away went to church because no one was at home. And within a week I found myself waking up early to work with simon, sam and leslie. Yeah it was a good time working with them. I especially liked mornings when we did the devotions, going through the book of Luke and later Acts.

Soon it was time to plan for the Salt and Light camp. There was a lot of details to look at and prepare for but God took control la. Everything went well and the camp had a good effect on most of our lives. But even there things were quite busy. There's a difference between being in a place where you just receive or enjoy the unseen works of others and being among those who are responsible for making things work.

Salt and Light also saw restoration in my life for which I am thankful to God. We fall down but we get up and you know the bible says a just man will fall seven times and will surely get up each time. Its ok to make mistakes but we always have a price to pay la, thats unreconcilable. But God is a good God, forever :) He is pure Good.

Soon after the camp was the carolling. I just thank God for the opportunity to be a part of it. It was a success and I hear there are more offers for next year. And then ICCTS came along, and this time again I was with sam, leslie and simon plus amanda, natasha and aunty Janna. Stuck together for one month of spiritual boot camp, well kinda. It was a refreshing time for me. I was awakened to the duty I hold as a christian to finish the work Jesus started and to restore the earth to the way God intended when He created Adam and Eve and put them in the garden of Eden.

It was also a training time for me, I really learned to trust God with His word and allow Him to speak what He wants me to know and do. During this time i was also reminded of the motives behind my service, and the things I do. God never looks at what we do but He looks at the heart and motive behind why we do the things we do.

Going to the village was really a good time for me and the others, you know everything just went well and we came back with joy and accomplishment. Going there for the second time was really good. Quite different from the first time because.. well i've talked about this in the previous post.

Now things are winding down, my time table is already out. Payment of fees should have been made today but due to 'circumstances beyond my control' {yeah that all too familiar cliche} it will have to be tomorrow. I just hope that i can finish everything on time. I miss my friends in miri and can't wait to see them again, we had such a nice time last sem. However I cannot wish for the same this sem because of the mounting responsibilities and engagements that are required of me. I just need God the grace and wisdom of God to give my best in all I do. Please remember me in your prayers.

Looking back I thank God for the opportunities la, thank God for the friends and for pastor cheli and aunty mei, for all their help and support. And for you all for a nice time together, though it was short. Its funny how I miss kuching when i'm in miri and vice versa, when will it end? Hehe

God bless you, oh and ah happy valentine's day.

~shalom~

testimonies for November '07

I was reading ODB today and in Psalm 119:148 David says I stay awake through the night thinking about your promises. It gave the encouragement to spend some time everyday thinking about the faithfulness of God. To be truly thankful is a worship to God.

The month of November was probably one of the best months of the year. Even though it was the exam month, and even though the exams were so tough I thank God for seeing me through them and for the surprising result. Even though I have a supp exam, i even thank God for that. Really His mercies have been great.

I thank God also for the time i was able to spend with my friends after exam, we really had a good time especially with Samantha since she'll be leaving for Australia.

I also thank God for relentless '07 and for what happened there. Its not just information, it more of a life changing, mind altering time for me. I was reminded of some of the dreams and desires of my heart that I had lost for some reason and settled for something less. You can call it a restoration time.

Finally i want to thank God that i can come back to Kuching and to serve in Bethany. I really consider myself privileged to be doing the things i'm doing now. Yeah thank You Lord for all these things and more. I am indeed grateful.

~shalom~

lost and found

Just how do you lose a book? Now how do you lose a book you need for exams? I'm not sure why i lost the book. I'm not sure on which day i lost it but thinking it through it must have been on Saturday. I took the 3.30 bus back home and forgot it in the bus. I didn't notice it was gone until Monday. I just can't seem to study on Sundays because after church we all go makan only to get back by 2 or 3 something. By then you feel so sleepy already then later call friends go for dinner and Sunday is gone.

Monday was spent thinking of where i could have left the darn thing, so i asked the stores where i went to and they didn't have it but it was not to be found there.

Tuesday was spent thinking of the consequences of losing the library's book. I would have to shell out hundreds of ringgit to replace the book so i didnt tell them it was lost, instead i asked them to renew all the books in my possession to the same day. Now i dont have to worry about paying the late fees if i dont find the book on time. I also did what i was suppose to do earlier on, ask the bus driver if he came across the book which i did and turns out he did so i was semi happy. He gave the book to the security on duty but he was not on duty on tuesday, and no one knew where he kept it so i could not get the book. However they asked me to fill the lost and found form. I filled it with all the details and was asked to wait till the next day, hence my semi happiness.

Wednesday was spent being cool, not worrying too much and giving them time to get things in order. I just reminded the lady that made me fill the l&f form and she said to come back after 2, then the officer i need to see will be on duty, so i was calm and after 2 i got a call from her and she was there with the officer. He was smiling and said i need to give him tapao, i just smiled, and he said you know what tapao is right and i said yes but i was not really going to give him anything. Just said thank you uncle, and smiled a lot. He had the smell of ciggs on him and as he smiled it revealed a black cigg stain on his teeth close to the gum. I was disgusted but grateful.

Then he went on, if i dont keep, how much you have to pay? I said this not in scolding tone but in a you need to be grateful boy, tone. I kept the smile and say thank you uncle routine going until he gave me the book. I only needed to sign off on the l&f form and the book was mine until the end of exams that is.

I really thank God found it, and dont have to pay for it.

~shalom~

oddities

A good thing happened today. This has happened to me too many times in the past i thought by now i would have learned my lesson. This morning when i went to the open lab i forgot to take out my pen drive. I didn't notice until i was in the library and noticed its not in my pocket. Heart racing, sh*t, i forgot my pen drive. :pray: please be there, please be there.

So i rushed down to G2 and thank God it was still there. There was a nice girl, well i didn't get to see her but i guess she's nice la since she didn't take my pendrive. She just kept it on the CPU. Sigh of relief.

Another sigh of relief or half sigh of relief since i just finished the 'tough test'. I'm sure i made alot of mistakes. I din't study trees and it came out. D'oh! Anyway its over. The next one is OS i just pray it won't be as confusing as the lecturer makes it. I think maybe i'll just record his lecture and listen to it when i want to sleep. Its so soothing that once i slept in class and he was just next to me. Can't help it la, you'll sleep to if its you.

This last one is kind of like an inside story so don't tell anyone ah. My housemate listens to high school musical alllllllll day long. Even at night! Its freaky. I mean doesn't he get tired of listening to the same songs over and over and over again? Not sure how old he is but man, thats some dedication.

Oh and one last thing. I got an email from my mom today, was quite surprised she took time to mail me, this is like lets see now... the second email i've gotten from her in three years. Thats got to be a record. Anyway, she was basically saying this study, study, study, study, study. She repeated it like 7 times, i kid you not. And the entire email was like three lines long. Its good to know she has not changed. I just replied with a happy face :) i don't think she would be interested to know my plans for the school break. lol I still miss her la.

:cries: I want my mummy. :sob: sob:

Ok la enough for now, i have a group meeting at 4 and presentation tomorrow.

~shalom~

Testimonies for the month: July '07

Testimonies for the month is my way to look back on the month and thank God for all his faithfulness in my life. I got the idea last Sunday from the Pastor at Calvary and decided it was a good way to stay thankful for everything thats been happening.

I'll just state them as they come, its not in chronological order or anything so here we go.

I will like to thank God for my acceptance offer at Curtin. I applied to the University of Nottingham and they rejected my application. I want to thank God especially for allowing me do something i've always wanted to do and to do it in a place where I get the chance to be pushed and develop skills for life.

I want to thank God also for my parents for their understanding in allowing me pursue this course. And also of course for their financial support for me al these while.

I want to also thank God for the successful burial of my Grandfather last weekend. For the strength and resources He gave to my mother to plan, organise and implement everything especially as my father was away for a job.

I want to thank God that despite everything that has been said and done that His word is still true and He has shown himself faithful in the eyes of those who do no put their trust in him. I still believe that one day the hearts that have been hostile to him will bow in surrender to Him.

I also like to thank God for his grace and his help with the renewal of my passport. For me its not just a trivial thing. Even for the help of friends, brothers and sisters when i needed their support. I thank God especially for the family of believers i have been a part of. It doesn't matter where I go he's prepared people who love him to stand alongside me and help me along my way. In a related matter, i want to thank God for his help getting a place to stay in KL and for his provision in terms of transportation and his protection while i was there. Usually my mindset is that i'll get mogged or something but it didn't happen. Praise God.

I thank God for the opportunity to serve in curtin with the Varsity Christian Fellowship (VCF). I really need fellowship in this school where things are very liberal. Thank God for Kimberly, Joanna and her mom for housing me for the night when i arrived here. Taking me in in such warmth and love. May God bless them indeed. Also for Gia and Rachel and Diane for their help :) Thank God for people like Samson who's also from Kuching, like me. :P And Dominic who's from PJ and Edward who works in Shell for picking us up for church last sunday. Last Sunday i went to Calvary and the service was quite good. Although it wouldn't hurt to see more young people involved in the church.

Thank God for the character defining time i'm going through now. All i want to do is submit and allow him to work in me to will and to do his good pleasure. And make me who he wants me to be.

I thank God for my courses, even though they are challenging, I thank God that I can do all things through his Son who gives me strength.

Finally I thank God for you all for your love for God and if there's one thing i've learnt in my life thats been helping me out even now, is this: DON"T EVER GIVE UP! Keep pushing on the pressure thats pushing you.

God bless you

~shalom~

think about his love

The past few days have been kind of strange for me. I've been having 'good worries' and some not to good worries but in all of it, God is in control.

In a few weeks or months, I will be leaving kuching and I remember talking with Joshua and telling him bethany is like family to me, was talking with eilyn and telling her that kuching is like my home and its kind of strange leaving this place after such a long time, so many friends to go somewhere else and start all over again. Well not really all over again but it just won't be the same.

In my time here i've really changed within, but i still dont talk much so its difficult to keep a conversation going if you dont talk much too, we just look at each other and smile once in a while hehe :p I am fearfully and wonderfully made!

After my diploma in Electrical/Electronics Engineering i had a crazy idea to do something else. Was not sure if it was the right thing to do but i was sure I was not going to continue in engineering. So i made applications and to my shock i was accepted. {Victory number 1}. As you can imagine I was thrilled and just fell down to my face and kept repeating thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you to God. If you know me, then you know i'm not a very good student, i only get a few As and once i missed my exam so i had to take it again in the next semester but this was too much.

Now i had to explain to my father...oooooooow! Kept procastinating and putting it off until I got an email from the man asking me about my admission and stuff so i explained to him everything. I was very scared, didnt know what to expect from him, was very unsettled but part of me was at peace. It was like whatever it is i'll take it. He replied with a positive response and i was like God thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you.

I really dont deserve anything good from God, but somehow He just decides to keep the smile on my face, so when you see me smiling all the time you know God has been very very GOOD to me. I feel there is more to come, more surprise as long as we remain in him. Part of the S.M.S we are doing has this very in matthew i think, or john hehe not sure now but it says If you remain in me and my word remains in you, you may ask whatever you wish and it will be given to you. In another part it says the ernest expectations of the righteous will not be cut off. And my favourite part of the bible, the psalms has this in the 139th chapter about us... Every moment of our lives was laid out before a single day has passed. Every day of our life is recorded in his book.

So today, think about his love, think about his goodness and thank him :)

~shalom~

God IS GOOOOD

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Will elaborate later. This is too... i'm overwhelmed.

~shalom~

Count your blessings

The past few weeks have been quite stressful for me. We had to meet several deadlines for the finl year project. Reports were submitted, presentations were made and re-made, the actual circuit had to be fully functional accepted as satisfactory by the various supervisors and on top of all that were the demands of other subjects we're taking so you can imagine how busy i was. I'm not going to narrate everything but i just want to concentrate on the challenges i had while doing this project.

How can you explain to people that a simple device made up of capacitors and resistors and other unfamiliar components can actually make them sleep? That was my task. I had problems getting the main component for the circuit which is an inductor that was not commercially available and the materials to make one not easy to come by, so for my first and second oral presentations i didnt have this main component. Only after asking some questions on yahoo answers did i discover that the wire can used to make the inductor is the same one used in transformers and fortunately i had an old broken down hair clipper in the house with a transformer so problem number 1 is solved.

Next came the connecting of the circuit which is actually the easiest part in the whole process. I had it working after several tries and finally showed the output to my supervisor who gave me the go ahead to build it on the Printed Circuit Board. I successfully connected everything after short-circuiting my first board. Usually we dont use the PCB in the lab so i was unaware of the current direction in the borad but on the second try it got it working and showed that to my Supervisor who was ok with it.

Now it looked ugly as it was so i got a casing for it and in the process of preparing the circuit for its new shell i broke something, the circuit wont work anymore. This is where the main problem started.

One day before we need to present my circuit stopped working, i felt like something out of the ordinary was happening. Initially i thought i must have blown one of the ICs so i got another one a few hrs before we were to present, changed the ICs and nothing. From this point on, i unleashed the power of tongues and started confessing the promises of God and exercised the highest faith i could come up with, i was very optimistic it would work but i had fear i would fail this course.

30 minutes before we go live, my circuit is still not working so i called sam to take a look at it for me and see if i made any errors but there was nothing wrong. All the connections are grounded but power is not flowing to all parts of the circuit. He kept checking and checking until somehow a solution came up and could finally go to the hall and present, 15 minutes late.

It was the most terrifying moment of my life. I couldnt imagine having to do all this again, what would i tell my father?

But i learnt a few things from this experience. We are more than conquerors in Christ! The sermons and tapes i've been listening are all saying the same thing; the kingdom of God is here among you, you possess the kingdom, a city set on a hill cannot be hidden.

I learnt to stand firm and confess the victory i already have in the finished work of Jesus on the cross. To press on until something happens, not to give up and fight another day but to take what is already mine. The bible says we are blessed with all spiritual gifts in heavenly places and the keys to the kingdom has been given to us.

So sometimes when it seems like the righteous are not progressing and the unrighteous are advancing, it could be that the people who have the victory dont even know what they have, so it was very encouraging to be able to go through that and come out victorious.

Sure enough we went for pizza later that evening just to celebrate new found freedom from the stress of project and i just want to thank God for sending his son to die so that we can have victory. Its true, we'll never know how much it cost to see him on that cross.

~good friday~

traffic light

So we were going back home and came to the traffic light going near MD motors and it was chaos, the intersection was grid-locked and the rain was coming down gently, the traffic lights were not working. There we were in the van talking, if this was Nigeria, there would be someone orgnising the people, even if there was no one, there would be some kind of movement as everyone would try to navigate the impossible intersection and gain right of way. Well nothing was happening so someone, i think it was Christian who suggested that Valentine go and channed the traffic so we could go.

It started like a joke, we said he could come out in the papers, just like pastor. You see pastor was sharing a story of how when courts mammoth was opening, the number of people who turned up were like 2000, people all the way from Sibu came to form lines to get 28" tv's and other household stuff for a bargain. He and aunty mei were in the line they got up about 6am just to get some stuff and there was this old man who was limping and he said he felt sorry for this old man but was reluctant to leave is line, and this old man kept on limping towards the road, but he could take it anymore so he phoned aunty mei who was a few people in front of him and they went to this man, who was trampled by the people and broke his leg, by the middle of road and took him to the hospital. He was sharing that he came out on the papers for helping this man so we were encouraging Valentine to go help, half doubting if he would or could.

But he went anyway and it was apperent that he couldnt handle the cars alone so prince and Godswill {he's new} came up and helped him. They did a very good job, and before you know they got things into order. People were appreciative, some said thank you, some just hunked but no one gave us money! hehe just joking, but in Nigeria i'm sure someone would have given money, i guess malaysians are not like that. Anyway money was not the motivation.

They took charge of the traffic until the traffic people took over and we could go home. Its nice to see something positive come out from the Nigerian community in Kuching, alot of negative things have happened in the past but that was the past and things are changing, i just hope this kind of thing continues, not the blackout but the positive contribution to kuching and sarawak and indeed malaysian by foreigners.

We thank God la. :)

~shalom~

God in the little things

I just want to praise God what what just happened to me. As i came back home, i checked my pocket and my keys were not there. So i was like oh man! What am i going to do? I must have locked it in the room.

Luckily my housemate was at home, i could hear him snoring, so i called him up and he opened the door and went back to sleep. In my mind i was thinking of alternatives because i knew there was no way to get into the room. I was just distressed and panicky, all kinds of thoughts went through my mind i even thought of walking through the door, need to have faith la right? Well yeah but i dont have faith enough to believe i can walk through wood.

So there i was, a victim of my own carelessness. In cases like this i would call my landlady and she would come and open the door with her spare key but it so happens that her phone was stolen just a few days ago and she has not replaced it so calling her was hopeless but i tried anyway, didnt work.

I was just pacing about and then i just asked God, what do i do now? And there was silence, no voice in the clouds. So i went downstairs and tried the set of keys i found on her {my landlady's} table but non fit the door, that again was a hopeless attempt but i didnt care. I was desperate to try anything. I even tried it in prince's room to see if it would open, if it did i'll probably sleep there for the night since he's in Nigeria at the moment but nothing.

Haiya, what to do ah? I honestly didnt want sleep over at michael's house because that would mean i would wear the same clothes i wore today to church tomorrow and it would mean defeat and surrender. How can God come through for me if i always take the easy way out? Besides i wont have this testimony to share now. So i went downstairs again and found a set of keys kept in a top secret place i cant tell you about and opened my door.

I tell you i was like God, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you. You are indeed a good God. And help me not to take you for granted.

Its amazing to think that God is the God in little things too. God loves OgUcHi

~shalom~

sure ah?

I want to share my life testimony here, i dont think i've shared this before, and i think its necessary that i do. Dont be shocked, everything i say is true, i even have witnesses to some events here.

Are you a christian?
Sure, i've been a christians since i can remember!

There was a time i was not sure i was really a christian, i was not sure whether i belonged to the body of christ or not, i was not sure about anything especially when i hear people's testimonies of how they came to christ and how they will never forget the day, i know alot of people know the day and the events tht surrounded their salvation and i didnt, i was not sure and everytime i would come to God i would ask him, am i yours? How come i dont have the same testimony as these people? How come i dont experience the same thing they do?

I remember giving my life to christ when i was in Nigeria, I just finished my O'Level exams and during the waiting period for results i enrolled in the baptismal class {yes there is such a thing} and one of the requirements was a written testimony of your salvation. This was going to be tricky because i could not recall if i did so i went home and knelt down and prayed the prayer and i really meant it. Before that time in my life, i was involved with alot of bad stuff, stuff that are shameful so much that i came down one day and cried to God and said God, if you do not save me i will destroy myself and a hatred for these things developed in me but God was not the center of my life then.

There is one thing about not being sure, the devil will use that and torment you, you cannot stand firm as paul says in romans 6:10 with the whole armour and battle because you dont know where you stand and you cannot come to God and say ok i'm ready now God, save me. Doesnt work that way.

So i lived my life like that, i enjoyed the things of God, i prayed, well sometimes i tried so hard but its all human effort, it doesnt go far. Its all pretence and hypocrisy.

God knows us and when he does something in our lives he'll do it in a way that you will know its him. I dont usually cry in public, i'm a guy but i remember clearly pastor kenneth preaching at good news, he was talking about the difference between david and solomon. In 1kings 3:3 Solomon loved the Lord just like his father david except, he offered sacrifices at the local alters. And he was challenging the young people there, are there excepts in your life? God is eith God of all or not at all. There was something about that message that hit me, and it came to a point when we all came out to commit our lives to God, well some of us that i was crying, it was strange, i could not control myself it was almost embarrassing but it didnt matter that much, pastor cheli came up and prayed for me and said alot of things have taken over oguchi and i nodded in agreement, that was profound.

Things didnt change much after that, but i was not happy with the way my life was, i just couldnt help myself.

Then one sunday pastor had to go to KL for some reason, i dont remember now and he said mark would preach on sunday when he arrives kuching, and michael was backup in case he didnt come on time but sure enough this indian guy with his sister came into the church with his bagpark.

I never really met him before but some of the guys; michael, chris, and simon must have known him because he noticed he was losing weight. There was something about him, while he was preaching there was an intensity and a sadness at the same time a sharp piercing word from God, un-diluted and just raw without any flowerings or anything like that. He was talking about the churches that are closing in parts of malaysia and the rise in false teachings but for some reason he came and was saying, are you sure, are you sure you belong to God, do you know beyong a doubt that Jesus will not reject you. That was hard, he was basically tearing down all my walls, all my defences, there was no where to run, no excuse made sense anymore, i needed to be sure.

So when he called out for those who want to be saved and be sure, i went up. Its a hard thing to do, i was in the midst of my friends, and brothers and sisters who have always regarded me as a christian and i was coming out to be saved, to be sure. It was hard but its not about them, this is about me and God, i dont care what anyone thinks but i had to know i'm His. I had to clear the doubts and get real, i had to make a stand in public and declare that i am for Jesus.

I was crying up there as i stood beside Yong shen who also came up, I admire him for his courage, he was also crying. At that time i felt shame and i felt vulnerable and i felt that i had let God down all this while, i remember saying God, i'm scared. In the midst of all these i felt his love, that why when anyone asks me, what is God to you, i say he's good. It seems like a simple answer but its an answer i can testify to, it has a deeper meaning in my life.

I dont have to face the tormenting thoughts of my place in God, now i know for sure, and i remember that sunday in october when i gave my life to God for real. I still have my quiet personality but there are things that are deposited in me that were not there before. God is real and God is good. So in closing this rather long post i want to ask you in all humility and gentleness, are you sure you belong to christ?

~selah~

wishlist

You know God is good? I was just going through some old files and found a list of things i wanted to do and places i wanted to go and things i wanted. It sounds like of selfish when i look back at what i wrote, i mean all those stuff for me and i was tempted to add more :P

I had some of them crossed out because they were not necessary but i was amazed how most of them have already been taken care of, like going to singapore, its so great. Even the mp3 player i won was in the list, i wanted to buy one but now i dont have to. And the best part about the whole thing is that i didnt even pray for these things i just get them.

Its so amazing to have a father that cares about us and knows the needs we have, its like a father who's walking pass his child's room and overhear them pray for something and decides to suprise them and get the exact thing the child was praying for, imagine the joy the child would experience, and even more than that the love for the father that will be reinforced. Its nice to know that he knows our thoughts and desires, and it pleases him to give us things.

He is our Father, but he's also King and Lord of all. I'm glad he's my father.

~shalom~