happy third

Its the 30th of july and about 3years since the blog was started. I find that its my release. Some people have friends they can tell stuff to, cry to.... i have this and other outlets. But this here blog is more than an outlet.

I've tried to make it all kinds of stuff, been through times when it was about the comments or being popular or something but its not that. I'm not that kind of a person. I recognise that i'm different, in many ways. Some say i'm an introvert others just well...

This blog is more like therapy for me. Its where i share my thoughts, find sanity, learn restraint. If i found a human that could have the same effect then it will be the end but until then, i hope to keep writing.

-ONWARD

this and that

The past few weeks have been very interesting. It was very frustrating dealing with the people at streamyx, getting the line installed and working and the occasional (i always have to think of the correct way to spell occasion) call to 100 (their helpline) when for some reason i can't connect to the internet when everyone else can. But the time away from the rest of the world was perfect to spend some time playing a few computer games i've kept on hold because of this and that. So far i still have not completed nfs 2, most wanted and i just got started on carbon. Plus there's not burnout paradise thats quite difficult to play, atleast at first because the controls are all weird and i finally got to play diablo 2 after a long time. I remember i got stuck at the earlier levels and now i'm at the end of act 1. It was fun playing with my housemates too :)

Time away from the internet also freed me to do some thinking. Increasingly i've been worried about well this and that and i got this great book thats suppose to help straight things out in my inner world. If you know me you know how disorganised i am. There's something about chaos that's i dunno refreshing? No thrilling is the word. The rush and all.

I've also been thinking about what it means to meditate on God's word. Thats why there's a previous post from a site that was a result of a google search. But its simple and short. There's none of the theological crap that confuses people. Its interesting that these days we feel guilty when we are less busy. It seems to be that the more busy you are the more successful you are, the more you are getting things done. Thats not really the case.

I've been watching house a lot lately, atleast 3 episodes a day and the more i watch, the more i feel like i want to be a psychologist or something like that. For some people its all about the medicine and how brilliant a doctor he is, never afraid to take a risk, always taking the unconventional and sometimes the downright wrong path but in the end he gets his job done. I certainly admire that but for me the part thats interesting is the undercurrent of activities, the behind the scenes drama that goes on, the little things. How a gesture means more than what people say. And of course, the golden rule; everyone lies. Human life is interesting.

School starts monday and with it everything else. Here's to a great semester. One we will never forget. I read this somewhere

Never postpone joy

-ONWARD

onward

Because forward is the only way,

because nothing can be done about what has happened,

because time does not stop,

because we have another day,

because we learn.....eventually,

because we are hopeful,

because of a promise,

because even though our hearts condemn us,....

because we must.

-ONWARD

on meditation

This is for me.

Meditation is a combination of reviewing, repeating, reflecting, thinking, analyzing, feeling, and even enjoying. It is a physical, intellectual and emotional activity—it involves our whole being.

In some ways, meditation doesn't easily fit into Western culture. We value action and busyness more than stopping and considering. The author of this psalm (psalm 119:15) was from another time and culture, one with a tradition that valued meditation. As a result, meditation came more naturally for him and others with his Middle Eastern background. We have to overcome some cultural obstacles to learn to meditate.

There are many ways to meditate on God's Word. Some possibilities include:

(1) Take time to read a verse or passage over and over.
(2) Begin to memorize all or part of it.
(3) Listen—quiet your heart to allow the Holy Spirit to speak to you though God's Word.
(4) Consider how it fits with the rest of the Bible and life in general.
(5) Become emotionally involved—allow yourself to feel what God feels, his desires expressed through his words.
(6) Move from meditation to application—connect your thoughts to action. Consider how the truth and power of the Word of God should affect your behavior.

(source)

-ONWARD

no internet = boring

Its been a week since i came back. No internet at home = boring one week. I kind of now miss kuching again.

Its going to be a rather interesting few months. School starts on the 27th and with it a whole lot of other stuff. Please keep me in prayers, i know i'll need all the help i can get.

Church was really good today. Pst shared from 1John 2 with the encouragement to grow in christ. Its funny because most of what i've been hearing for the past week have been along those line.

I don'te really have anything more to say so end.

-ONWARD

pro canon

I posted on fb asking for comments on which brand of dslr is better and why because lets face it, if you're getting a dslr chances are it will either be a canon or a nikon depending on where your allegiances lie.

I am biased towards canon so it was quite refreshing to see most people recommending canon. My first camera was a canon powershot a75 and i loved it until it died a premature death in the hands of many physicians :p

Its no secret that i'm currently dissatisfied by my current camera and was contemplating upgrading to some serious gear but i have to change my mind after considering that its just not enough getting a camera, you will also need to get lenses and flash at some point and i dont see myself making such an investment especially since these things are not particularly cheap.

So for now that will be on hold but my enthusiasm for photography remains. This might just be a blessing in disquise as it might just be the right time to get an apple product.

-ONWARD