faith

Pastor josh from the states preached on saturday at the ACS, same place nights of fire will be held later this month, and the main theme of his messages both saturday and today was faith, faith in God our father.

I must say it hit hard on me, i used to have so much faith in God while i was still quite young and not in a position where i make decisions on my own but things gradually changed as i left home and am now in a position where i make my own decisions and whatever they are, affect the choices i make and sometimes are influenced by other people for better or worse.

Basically i feel God sent him to kuching to tell me hey, i'm still here, can you trust me like you once did? i've not changed, come on lets work together. Reminds me of Jesus when he had to endure the cross and all the sufferings that came with it just so i can have a better life, just so that i dont have to work as much to be right. Even my earthly father had to work hard from when he was in school and even now he's an adult, he had to plan for me to have the opportunities i'm having now, its something to be grateful for and at the same time, this gratitude comes with responsibility to pass on the heritage of hard work and better life to the others under me. Blessed to be a blessing.

Thank you Jesus for never giving up on me, i know i can be stubborn alot of times and i run my life the way i want, i just want to say thank you for all the opportunities that you allow me to experience not because i deserve it but because you are love, and because you love, you give. Bring me to the point where i can be a blessing to others too not being selfish but caring just like you do.



~shalom~

holiday goals

I'm a very lazy person and the worst thing you can do for someone like me is give me a break, or a holiday. So the first week of my holidays are over with nothing to show for it, the next few weeks wont go the same way, i intend changing some things.

Considering that i dont do alot of reading despite my mom's best efforts; she sends me books. That not withstanding i often buy books myself just to read half way and keep it aside. If decided to read two books before my holidays are over.

The first one i bought myself at salvation; cries of the heart by Dr Ravi Zacharias.


Something i need at this time of my life when everything seems to be going south. The second one is the one my mom sent to me; A compact guide to discovering God's will. Its not pleasant to remember decisions that are made out of ignorance or plain stupidity so this book is great for that.

So thats my holiday plans for now, i'll try to live an ordered life as i go through all the things that come my way and will be updating y'all on what i learn.

~shalom~

holidays

My holidays started right from the last paper i wrote but officially its from monday, so thats like 2 days ago and already i'm so bored. Most of the folks in inti either travelled or just at home, and the best part is that this is just the first week of three.

Just to keep busy i play maplestory and watch movies, i feel like i should be doing more at the same time i have no idea what to do, and the haze, my goodness. The haze is not helping matters, everywhere is so hot and dry, i dont want to complain so i'll leave it at that.

I was thinking of getting a new camera since my former one is now caput {broken}. Thats what i get for giving everyone who asks, and they dont even take good care of it, ok i'm complaining again. Its tricky, i dont want a sony because of the price and the memory stick issue. Memory sticks are expensive, but sony cameras are good. Another option is canon, but my friends are discouraging me so that leaves me with fujifilm. I've not used fuji before so i dont know what to look out for and i'm just too lazy to go out and check them out. Dont like wondering from shop to shop.

Since i moved its been a struggle just getting back to my spiritual form, its really hard with the computer always online and if you know me and internet... I miss those times i used to be on my own just reading my bible and falling asleep. I want it back.

God is good, there is no evil in him, his love is overwhelming and we dont deserve it. But he gives it anyway. Thank God for that. Oh and ah, michael's birthday is on the 29th, dont forget ah.

~shalom~

colored people :-)

Recent events in my life has brought me to question, who are really my friends, and also what kind of friend i am. Its easy to point fingers and say, ...you were not there for me when i needed you, you dont care, i dont know why i'm you friend anyway, how come u didnt call me? You know but lets look inside and convince ourselves that we are better. I had a terrible event happen in my life this friday, it may look like nothing but i know all the implications and i'm not at liberty to share at the moment, some of you know already anyways.

I believe in everything that happens, it happens for a reason, hopefully a good reason so there's no point getting depressed and disappointed and down and low and blue and sad la. There are about a million good things that has happened so let no the itsy bitsy little small tiny things that happen overshadow the good.

I tried to post the pics of the stuff i won from tmnet but blogger is not co-operating so i cant post it here at the moment.

Following after joshua's footsteps, i've tried to record the messages in bethany, and this one is from last saturday. I want to apologise for the low sound quality my mp3 is not really good at recording good quality audio. Hope you get encouraged.


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~shalom~

moving on

Just want to update this blog so its not static all the time. Great news, someone from tmnet just called to inform me that i won the xmen contest, i was about 5 favored winners {notice i said favored not lucky} and he just called to confirm my address and hopefully by next week i should be receiving my prize. I was really suprised that i won, i usually dont win anything and i'm not malaysian, most of the competitions are for malaysians only {terms and conditions apply, dont they always} its great though.

By next week we'll be having our exams, its really stressful but it'll be all over soon, and most likely i'll be moving to a new house this week, will be meeting with the land lady today to make the final payments and occupy the room. It would be the first time i'll not be in the same roof as michael, the rooms in their house had all been taken by the time i found out, he offered to share rooms but i didnt accept, my bad.

There are concerns about my moving even though i dont really see a problem with it, i'm not in charge of who can live in the house, and there were already three people there before i even thought of moving so why all the unnecessary worry? If you dont understand what i just said nvm, i did that on purpose, but if you think abit .................ah {liberating right?}

~shalom~