bless my family

When i left nigeria not everyone was at home. I was missing a sister, she was away in school so i didn't get to say goodbye. Now i've been talking to her quite often since then but today she miss-called me. I didnt see it until this morning and i didnt call back until just now. 

Its been a long time, i see her pictures on fb and she's all grown up. Sometimes i just miss being the big brother, taking care of them, buying them stuff or just letting them criticize my choice of clothes. I remember we were going out once and they laughed at my pair of shorts, they were my favourite but by their standard it wouldn't do so i was compelled to go change.

i miss them la. heard my sister is going back in june. I wish i can be back too to see my mom whose birthday was last wednesday. She wants to celebrate her 50th in a big way :) I wouldn't want to miss that.

I was nice talking to her again. You know how parents have a 'favourite' child, she's probably my favourite sister. Not that i don't love the rest just that.... you know, can't explain it. I feel i'm closer to her than the others. 

Father bless my family, and keep them safe and sound, happy and glad, joyful and healthy, make their ways prosper and open doors of blessings for them. Let them shine your light and reflect your goodness. And prepare our reunion one day, make it special. Thank you Father.

~shalom~

i trust you

Anime soundtracks are the best. Currently my favourite is this one from Yuna Ito. Its from the season 2 of Gundam 00. Sadly next week will be the last episode in the current season, can't wait but then i'll have nothing to watch on mondays :( anyway enjoy this one.

English translation

Flowers sway in the wind as if dancing
So that the rain moistens the earth
Even though this world is alive, coming closer together
Why do people hurt each other?
Why do partings come about?

Even if you go far away, still
You're always right in the middle of my heart
While they remain buried away by that kind smile
Even if I feel pain
In fragments of you that I held, because we'll still connect
I trust that we can meet again
I'm waiting for your love

I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness, because we're together
We're able to trust each other
Please don't leave anymore

Who saw the edge of the world?
Who announces the end of the journey?
Even if it's a long night and you can't see the answer now
I want you to advance on the road that you trusted
Because light is waiting ahead of there

The song that you taught me
Is right in the middle of my heart even now
The overflowing drops of feelings
That are resonating together with that kind voice
Warmly trail down my cheeks
I'll become strong; I trust that we're connected
I'm always by your side

I love you, I trust you
These tears keep flowing because of you
I love you, I trust you
You taught me what love was
No matter how you're lost on the road
I'm by your side

Waiting for your love
Always by your side
Youre the one that I love
Youre the one that I trust
Youre the only one

I love you, I trust you
I want you to share your loneliness with me
I love you, I trust you
Even in light, even in darkness
I love you, I trust you
Even in sorrow, even in joy
I love you, I trust you
I want to protect all of you

No matter how you're lost on the road
I'm by your side; we're able to trust each other
Please don't leave anymore

~shalom~

lemme outta here

When i think of the amount of work i have to do this sem i just feel like screaming, or crying or just running. I know, compared to most people its not much and i dont want to complain. I know that it is in these kind of situations where God likes to work to show us that He is mighty to save haha. True or not?

I don't want to complain or be freightened, {guess whats playing now? Trust in the lord by sixpence none the richer} but i know that God can see me through all the busyness and help me plan my time and make those sacrifices that i need to make to go through this sem successfully.

I know i can make it

I know i can stand

No matter what may come my way

My life is in your hands :)

~shalom~

seven pounds

Before i say anything i must say that its not a good idea to commit suicide no matter the circumstances. You cannot pay for your sins with your life. You will go to hell, literally.

This movie on the surface is a nice movie about a man trying to seek redemption for the choices he has made and the life he lived, for the mistakes he has made and on the surface it looks like a man trying to save people, he looks like a good man, a nice man but his motives however well crafted are sinister. 

Why such strong language? Because stealing, impersonating, deceiving, and self righteousness will get nobody no where. When people look at his life post transformation they will say what a man, it ends with him, they will be grateful for his 'good' deeds and they will honor him for what he has done. They will forget the hurt he left, the relationships he has neglected, ignores, the broken heart. What good is a heart if your hope if deferred?

No matter what happens we have someone who has already paid the price for all the evil we have done or will perpertuate in our lives and thats Jesus. He died so that we can have life and have it in abundance. We don't need to pay for our sins because they have been paid for. It doesn't matter how grave the evil. 

However its not wrong giving hope to those who need it. Its not wrong to donate your organs for those who are in need. Its not wrong to give your heart away, its not wrong to give everything you have lived for to some stranger. It is wrong to think that doing all these things will somehow go to pay for your mistake.

I'm sorry for being so strong but it has to be said. And in case you're wondering the name seven pounds was taken from the shakespeare's The Merchant Of Venice, in which a debtor must pay a pound of flesh. In this case it amounts to parts of Tim's body donated to seven persons deemed worthy by his judgment. They are the recipients of his heart, a lung, part of his liver, and his eyes, among other things. And jelly fish are dangerous.

3/10

~shalom~

alpha experience

Yesterday we had our first alpha gathering under vcf. Its not the first time alpha has been run in curtin, last sem the anglican students ran one and my church ran one as well. But this time VCF (Varsity Christian Fellowship) is running one for those who are new to the Christian faith or those curious.

The organisation and planning has not been good. I think we did most of the things last minute. I was really scared that we were just going to watch the video alone but God is good la. When we are not able, or prepared, He is more than able and will do things His way.

For the first gathering we had 11 people which is just enough for the 6 of us. 3 girls and 2 guys. And people you think are Christians just are not, or have questions about the Christian faith that you would not expect. I mean these are your friends, you hang out with them and they seem to fall into place. Seem ok.

Some of the questions were tough la. But as the moderator i didnt get involved with the speaking, i just asked the questions. As usual i was setting up the computer and making sure the videos worked ok. I guess i always find myself in this position.

Thank God for using us to do his work la. I really am not worthy to do these things but He is merciful enough to ask me to join in His work. You know sometimes we look at ourselves and don't see anything good in us. We see all the failures, shortcomings, weaknesses, things we cannot do but God just uses all that and does a beautiful work. Thank You God :)

~shalom~