take two

Hi,

Its been 5days since the announcement. I've missed being able to share my thoughts. Short story, i'm moving to another place to continue thisjourney. 

~shalom~

fin

After 275 post in 2 years. I have an announcement to make. I'm closing down this blog. I don't enjoy doing this anymore. Its been nice while it lasted. 

~shalom~

where's the tagboard

Hi,
yeah where's the tagboard? Well i've been having problems with annoying pop ups, can't seem to trace where its coming from so i did a little digging and discovered that the cbox tagboard thingy might be causing it.

Hopefully i'm wrong, but if it indeed the cause of all the annoyance than i might look for an alternative or maybe we don't need a tagboard on here. So yeah.

~shalom~

18.08.08

Ello,
So 08.08.08 has come and gone with much fanfare and is now history but there's another history in the making. David Crowder Band, i so love their music, will be launching their new album on the 19th. Yeah the 19th but on the 18th there will be a screening in selected cinemas in the US, yeah unfortunately we can't see the screening here but...oh well.

Here's the official message from david;

In case you haven't heard, we have a brand new live CD/DVD coming out on August 19th that we're SUPER excited about. Remedy Club Tour Live has 16 tracks of audio goodness and the DVD has the full set recorded in Atlanta and New York, plus lots of behind the scenes footage and a step-by-step song instructional with each member of the band! Yes!

In even more crazy news, we've been told that over 100 movie theaters across the country are debuting our DVD for ONE NIGHT ONLY on AUGUST 18TH! Thats right, you will be able to see us in full HD goodness 20 feet tall! Anyway, we're pretty excited about it and hope you guys can make it out!

http://www.sixstepsrecords.com/remedyonenightonly/

And here's a short video of david in his kitchen before breakfast



there is no one like you *whistles away*
~shalom~

some impressions

Hi there,
I'm not sure what to blog about but i feel my fingers are itchy so might as well.

I've been listening to some rather new music, even though some of them are not actually new but i can say they are my discoveries in music. I still can't access my old hard disk since its formated in ext3 format which is native for linux and so my windows yuck yuck vista cannot read it. But i managed to get some of it out.

Its funny how technology complicates life instead of making it easier. That is the promise of technology right?

I've been thinking too. If something is meant to be, why isn't it always meant to be in the time and form that is convenient. I get patience and all but time brings with it change and some changes are not reversible, and memories fade, and feelings die, desire takes a back seat as other more important aspects of life take centre stage. Is that the point? Is that the whole idea?

And why should something that is wrong be made ok, acceptable? Why when the conscience is not in agreement do we persist in things that we know is not the best. Why settle for something momentary. What happened to the long run picture. Not everyone turn out right. So yeah its fun and nice now but what about the future? Think! Emotions are a wonderful thing but sometimes it takes the place of the brain and common sense. I wish we can be more...different. More firm with where we stand. But then again who am I to say anything?

This sem is turning out to be one of those sems you'll remember for the rest of your life. I feel like its a turning point in a lot of our lives. As much as i enjoy doing the things that i do, i feel a sense of loss. I feel like i spend less time with the people that matter, feel like life has become one big job, where there's minimal interaction and time to be just among friends. For everyone i've said no to, turned down for some reason, i want to apologize. At the same time please understand that some of these things are beyond what a puny human like me can control. I wish i can be there for everyone but there's only one me, i feel it la.

I finished reading one of the books on relationships my mom sent to me. I must say at first i felt a bit irritated about her sending me books on that topic but after taking a good read for a few months, i must say mummy knows best. Its actually a nice book. It goes through must of the things a man should know before taking the plunge. What to look out for and how to be a man to your woman. Now don't come to me for advice or anything, i think i need to go through it again for some of the things to sink in but i totally reccommend it. I think the title is how to find the right woman for you or something like that.

The other book i finished reading was take hold of God and pull, it talks about our relationship with the Father, challenges some of the assumptions about prayer that i had and how i approach Him. It really came at the right time, right after the news, and gave me hope again, made me realise that hey God is still there. Helped me see how much catch up i need to make.

Father thank you for every moment that you lay out,
for every day and its challenges, and for those times when i am down and you lift up my head,
wipe my soggy eyes and tell me its ok.

Thank you for your matchless promises, for your encouraging words, for the hope that we have in you. Indeed nothing can separate us from your love. And even if our heart condemns us, you are greater than our heart.

You see beyond the external and through every pretence, you see the heart. In your presence everything is plain, everyone equal.

I cannot run away from your presence, i cannot hide from your spirit, for if i got up to the heavens you are there, if i go to the place of the deep you are there, if i ride the wings of the morning, and ask the darkness to hide me, still your spirit seeks me. For light and darkness are both alike to you. Nothing is hidden, everything is plain in your presence.

I'm not like them, you know that already, and you made me, me. And i want to be me, to remain true, to keep the good deposits you have put in me, and to rid myself of the bad that i have made for myself.

I really thank you father, you are bigger than everything, bigger, much bigger. Much much bigger than anything i can think of or come across. And my life is in your hands, before you, my future decided. I believe in you, I trust you. Xie Xie :)
~shalom~

if you just smile

Hi there,
even though i like a lot of different genres of music, my absolute favourite has got to be those classical jazz, symphony orchestra and classical instruments with some opera here and there. I've been discovering or shall i say rediscovering the music i loved and still love and grew up with. They remind me of my childhood and tnt classical movies and all the beautiful scores to all the beautifully written movies in glorious black and white and the technological miracle of technicolor.

Needless to say i'm in a happy mood. I absolutely love the voice of Nat king cole and this is one of my favourite songs, smile.



Smile though your heart is aching
Smile even though its breaking
When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by
If you smile through your fear and sorrow
Smile and maybe tomorrow
Youll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness
Hide every trace of sadness
Although a tear may be ever so near
Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile



Thats the time you must keep on trying
Smile, whats the use of crying?
Youll find that life is still worthwhile
If you just smile

~shalom~

smile

I'm just going to talk to myself for a while if you don't mind.

Its not about you. Its not about you. Its not about you. Its not about you. Its not about you. 

Take time to smile, be happy, why are you so worried? Why do you worry? Why do you worry?

Wake up, smell that air, enjoy your life, be at peace, consider how you can be a blessing instead of sulking and being a big baby. STOP IT!

Smile guchi.

~shalom~

whatever

~shalom~

our world today

I saw this cool video and thought i would share it here.

For more information, visit shifthappens.
~shalom~

for my dad

hi, how are you?
Funny when i say i don't feel like blogging, i baru have a feeling to blog again. Well not to say a reason but just feel like saying something. I've been listening to hillsong, God he reigns, and its really great. I know its quite old but i love it.

God is awesome, its nice that a puny person like me can have such a big God how never sleeps just to keep me out of trouble and safe. And how he's always there, just a conversation away even though i don't talk much. He understands the things i cannot say because i don't know how. And even though the world thinks i'm weird, you think i'm you very own.

You ask me to draw close to you and instead i ask why you are far. You give me what i ask for until i feel spoiled. I can never understand your love for me. And yes its true no one can love me like you do.

Thank you for the blessing of music that you have given to us, thank you for awesome friends that i can hang out with, thank you for the salvation that we enjoy, and help me to look beyond me and spread your goodness out just like the way you send rain and sun all both good and evil. Thank you for everyday and for today.

~shalom~

i'll wait

Hi there,
I don't feel like a need to blog anymore, i dunno why. Maybe its just a phase. Another reason is that i'm quite busy this sem there's little time to do this blog thing as much as i love and enjoy it and for that let me apologize.

I'm currently going through some restructuring in my life. Starting to question my motive and the reason i do some of the things i do or do not do. Whether to accept what i've already known and used to, what have become my belief system over the years. So things are stirring in there.

Was asked about tongues during the week and it made me do a bit more reading and basically from what i gather the gift of tongues is one that the Holy Spirit bestows on people. Even though there is a desire in our hearts to want to have that gift, it is all up to the Holy Spirit to enable that gift in an individual. Was reading from the commentary in my bible and discovered the ability to speak in tongues is evidence of being baptised in the Holy Spirit and as such, there is an increased desire for the word in the life of such a person, there is birth in the heart of this person a burden for the lost and a love for God. According to the commentary in my bible, if you don't have these then the tongues that you have is not from God. Scary right? Its not possible for everyone in a church to speak in tongues because its not up to any one individual. I still have a lot of questions on this matter, need a good book on the topic.

There are two things happening around me at the moment. Its either someone i know is going to Australia or getting well...someone special or for one particular case, someone got the special person and went to Australia. Ok whats up with that? I guess its the season. Makes those of us not with that special someone yet feel like of left out.

The more i read on the subject of relationships the more i don't want to rush things and allow what i know to become alive in me first, and let the time of maturing take place. There's always a sweet feeling when you get something you've always wanted and have waited patiently for it until the right time or when you never expected it. I like surprises, i'll wait. Although there are times...

~shalom~