looking stupid

How are you doing? Just some updates, nothing much. The silence have been intentional, sometimes i talk too much and its good to step back once in a while.

Its may 9, second week of may already. Exams are approaching, tests are coming, assignment deadlines are here, time to get double serious and that dreaded word 'busy'. Seriously la i feel like if i don't want to do something i just say i'm busy and people kind of understand even though sometimes i'm not really busy. Its nice to hide behind busyness not to say that there are not people who really don't have time but well yeah.

I'm really struggling with one of my units, artificial machine intelligence. Its a lot of reading and you know me la, don't like to read one. But its kind of interesting its just that for when i think of the volume i'll have to read and all the definitions my heart sinks. But i need to put in more effort lo. It not particularly difficult per se just need to make out more time for it.

Recently i've been reading proverbs again. I feel so attracted to proverbs, dunno why but its such a nice collection. And you know how when God wants to tell you about something how he will use the same words and somehow make you come across those words in all your bible reading no matter how related or unrelated they may be? Well for me my keyword from God has been "hard work".

If you know me you know i'm incredibly lazy and abuse my time a lot. I can't keep doing that especially since the big guy above has thinks its time to tell me about it.

Its interesting how God gets to you? We were in lifegroup wednesday and the main theme of the bible study was when God speaks to you, simply obey. And its interesting how when you obey God you might look stupid in the eyes of people and thats the reason why someone like me will second guess or simply not do what God is telling me to do because why? I'm not sure.

Well our minds work rationally and logically that is why sometimes when God tells us to do something that is out of the normal and does not make sense, hence illogical we tend not to do it because our minds cannot compute it. But like was pointed out to me those people in Hebrews 11 were basically stupid people in the eyes of their friends, family and basically anyone looking from the outside. So be encouraged if you're being asked to do something seemingly stupid or plain ol silly in the eyes of people.

Father may we come to the place in our lives when nothing shakes us, and we live only by what your word says because when all else falls your word will remain. Help us to trust in your love and goodness for you are forever faithful. Guide our hearts and minds in these times, we ask for your joy and peace. Thank you Father, in jesus name, Amen.

~shalom~