learning from house

One of the best things to have in life is a friend, someone to talk to, share you life, get mad at, fight with, grow up with... For many people this is true, for many more its not.

In our lives we will have the choice or choices as to who this person, or people if you're lucky will be. Sometimes we don't choose them, they choose us. Sometimes there's no choice.

I've been watching house and the medical stuff is interesting if that floats your boat but for me its the life stuff, the perceptions, beliefs and values that this particular man has built his life around. I find him incredible the way he is attracted to the more difficult cases and how he somehow finds a solution making him ultimately indispensable to the hospital.

Life is not so simple and the values and ideas we hold on to are sometimes challenged and we have to make a choice whether to continue holding on to them or embrace something new, to ask the hard questions about what we really believe and why.

In this particular episode there's a girl who was raped and she wound up with house, there was something about him that attracted her to him and through the encounter was able to challenge him on some of the fundamental ideas he held, made the closed up coop open up to reveal a dark past.

When things go bad, someone disappoints you, a close friend becomes distant, there's betrayal and stuff like that its easy to find shelter and safety inside your own shell and decide thats it, i won't open up to anyone again, how can i trust anyone again. Sure your life may never be the same again but it would be a terrible shame to allow the things people do to you to alter the person you were meant to be.

Sure this is an incredibly difficult thing to do and dare i say almost impossible but therein lies the test of knowledge. If you know who i am and my purpose in this world and what talents and gifts God has given me to share then it makes no difference whether i am praised to scorned, whether someone is being nice to or not, whether they deserve a second chance or not, whether i should right them off or not. It makes no difference and the decision to love them regardless should make sense.

As i write this i'm also reminded of people i need to forgive and let go. I was reminded on Sunday that even Jesus had the scars on him hands and feet where they hurt him, so its ok if we remember those scars but he didn't hold anything against them and i should do the same.

My view of the world is constantly being redefined, and the more i experience the more challenging it is to actually give that gift, that talent that is inherent in my life out to anyone who needs it, to share and not hoard, to let go, to do the right thing. Its interesting how its immensely easier to do the wrong thing whereas it take a whole lot of effort to do the right thing. But in the end its so worth all the effort.

I hope this brings comfort to someone, even though i have a propensity to be vague most of the time but to close a quote that a love.

Faith never gives up,
it knows that despite appearances all is well.

God bless you.

~shalom~

for those times

I know things should be settled by now, it should have sunk in but there are times when i unconsciously reflect and i don't mean to but its hard to just ignore. And most times its like nothing else is real, like everything stopped, like the present fades away to the background and i'm me again.

I guess there's no point holding on to these things, even treasures are cast over board in a storm. I never thought it would be this difficult to let go but lead me through it, i'll follow you :)

Listening to some classic music now, and there's something about it that calms, and settles, relaxes and helps me focus on whats more important. I don't know about tomorrow or the day after that, but for today, shine the light on my path, i'll follow you.

xie xie

~shalom~

dream clouds sky

I didn't believe it could happen but this afternoon i took a nap and i had a dream. Guess what its about?

All week i've been wanting to go out and shoot something (take pictures). The sky was just so lovely on Sunday and i didn't bring my camera along.

Oh yeah so back to the dream. I dreamt i was in some kind of commonwealth gathering in a large auditorium, the stage had the widest screen you're even seen and they just looped pictures of clouds, nice silky white clouds with lovely blue sky. The photographers where outside, setting up and i thought i would just take a picture of the silhuete of people standing fixing cables and getting things ready with the sky as the background. I took some shot and they didnt looks as good as i wanted so i changed the settings and tried again but then the background was changed. :bummer:

I think i'm getting hooked on this photography things. Can't wait for exams to be over. ^.^

~shalom~

do the hard thing

I've been listening more and more to john piper. And on his last podcast he talks about this thing called the rebelution. Its basically a message by young people, to young people to "rebel against low expectations" to walk the hard road, to be more.

On his last podcast he talked about how Paul was saying to Timothy not to despise his youth, saying don't let the adults look down on you. You have the power to change them by the way you live. Live responsively, honour them, listen to your advice and even though they expect very little from you because well you're young don't give them that privilege. You have the power to influence them.

In this time in my life, i guess i need strong leadership, and i need something to devote my life's passion and a purpose i can live for for the rest of my life and dedicate all my time, talents and treasures to.

So please someone buy me this book. There's a good review here. I've been visiting this blog quite often and i'll put a link to it in the links section.

~shalom~

love peace and happiness

The more i listen to this song the more i think to myself how come i don't listen to these types of song. I need to rediscover my root man!
~shalom~