I never really watched the movie but i did something i have been planning on doing for a while now, and thats to visit eilyn's house. I've never been invited before but chinese new year is the best time to do these things so i went today.
Good clothes give me confidence. So wore something comfortable and confident, called a taxi and stan, and we headed off. Mom and dad were washing so we just went inside and sat down, waiting for the go signal before we started devouring all the 'food' in front of us.
I just love the square beef thing, dunno what its called but i could eat those forever. And of course there was some home-made pastries, and all the usual.
I was expecting someone to come and tell me, you keep off my daughter or else, and then show me a knife or something. Blame it on my crazy imagination. Movies are evil, they mess with your mind which is why the reality was somewhat disappointing.
Mom and dad just asked me some generic questions, what are you studying, how long do you have? What next after that? You come from Nigeria? That one is a classic, i cant count how many times i've been asked that. Apperently some people dont know Africa is a continent like Asia or Europe, they think its a country. Well AFRICA is NOT a COUNTRY, and Nigeria is a country in Africa just like Indonesia is a country in Asia. I'm sure alot of people know that and i'm just being insensitive.
So anyway dad {her dad} took us back, we got off at inti and that was how it ended. I never expected that. I expected some hostility and disagreement but i guess no one can make straight what God as made crooked and vice versa.
This year i wanted to take more risks and make mistakes and like i said in my new year post this is the year of responsibility and its starting to happen. I just pray i would meet up to the trust people have in me because quite frankly i'm nothing.
~shalom~
Wednesday, February 21, 2007
Saturday, February 17, 2007
the duty
I first saw this flash animation when we went for the condensed world missions course at Goodnews way back in 2004, i'm sure che chung and feli would remember it. I was just going through some old bookmarks and found it. Its very special, never fails to break your heart everytime and i would like to share it here.
Monday, February 12, 2007
cny 2007
CNY 2007 is looking up, so far i think its going to be specially memorable this year granted some of my friends are no more here, moving on with their lives and probably most significant is my visit to eilyn's home.
I dont know what to expect even after she's told me what to expect i still am quite nervous. I know its the right thing to do and i've been wanting to do this for some time now but CNY seems to be the perfect time for me, i think. Pray for me...please :)
Someone called me an Introvert and even though she's correct; i tend to keep things to myself and hardly share with anyone but i've been thinking about it since then and basically my dilemma is this; introvert is what i am, i can't change that {or can i? should i?}. My biggest concern is when it gets in the way of reaching out and being used by God to touch someone's life. If its a hinderance than i might have to re-think if i want to continue like this or change.
But then in changing, what do i become? More like someone i'm not familiar with or have bits of myself with a different approach to things. Its just tricky for me i think. Yet have i really changed from who I used to be?
My sister called me saying she can't believe i could go on stage and act a drama, and true i wouldnt do that under normal circumstances, and my family know that more than anyone else but i dont know if its growing up or God changing things in me but i find i can do that {i mean act abit la}.
So if anyone is reading this i'll like to ask is my personality a hinderance to you? Be honest. :)
I dont know what to expect even after she's told me what to expect i still am quite nervous. I know its the right thing to do and i've been wanting to do this for some time now but CNY seems to be the perfect time for me, i think. Pray for me...please :)
Someone called me an Introvert and even though she's correct; i tend to keep things to myself and hardly share with anyone but i've been thinking about it since then and basically my dilemma is this; introvert is what i am, i can't change that {or can i? should i?}. My biggest concern is when it gets in the way of reaching out and being used by God to touch someone's life. If its a hinderance than i might have to re-think if i want to continue like this or change.
But then in changing, what do i become? More like someone i'm not familiar with or have bits of myself with a different approach to things. Its just tricky for me i think. Yet have i really changed from who I used to be?
My sister called me saying she can't believe i could go on stage and act a drama, and true i wouldnt do that under normal circumstances, and my family know that more than anyone else but i dont know if its growing up or God changing things in me but i find i can do that {i mean act abit la}.
So if anyone is reading this i'll like to ask is my personality a hinderance to you? Be honest. :)
Thursday, January 25, 2007
draw me near
Just a quick update. School is going on quite ok, i still need to submit my school applications as soon as i can before i call my father. I dont want to sound like i'm not planning or anything, that wouldnt do.
Having tests all this week, the last one should be over by tomorrow, thats going to be interesting but i'm quite confident la. My first test wasnt too bad although i'm yet to see the result, i think i did well despite some mistakes i only noticed when i thought about the questions again a few days ago. The thing with programming and the different languages is the syntax is changing and you must adapt to it. But i enjoy it, its like playing chess. I haven't started anything on my project yet, still dragging my feet.
Chinese New Year is almost here. I'm not sure but i might be visiting a few houses this year, lets hope all goes well. This might well me my last CNY in kuching, by God's grace before the end of the year i'll be somewhere else. Where? I'm sure yet. It all depends on the response response i get from the schools i'm applying to, but by God's grace i wont have to leave Sarawak.
A lot of people leaving this year, i guess its the sending out year :) its kind of sad but thats life, people come and go and the only permanent thing is the love of God for our lives, He is the lover of our soul.
Finally, a song;
Having tests all this week, the last one should be over by tomorrow, thats going to be interesting but i'm quite confident la. My first test wasnt too bad although i'm yet to see the result, i think i did well despite some mistakes i only noticed when i thought about the questions again a few days ago. The thing with programming and the different languages is the syntax is changing and you must adapt to it. But i enjoy it, its like playing chess. I haven't started anything on my project yet, still dragging my feet.
Chinese New Year is almost here. I'm not sure but i might be visiting a few houses this year, lets hope all goes well. This might well me my last CNY in kuching, by God's grace before the end of the year i'll be somewhere else. Where? I'm sure yet. It all depends on the response response i get from the schools i'm applying to, but by God's grace i wont have to leave Sarawak.
A lot of people leaving this year, i guess its the sending out year :) its kind of sad but thats life, people come and go and the only permanent thing is the love of God for our lives, He is the lover of our soul.
Finally, a song;
Lord I come to You
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I found in You.
And Lord I've come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love.
Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side.
And as I wait
I'll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love.
Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me.
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my eyes
In living every day
by the power of Your love.
Let my heart be changed, renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I found in You.
And Lord I've come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love.
Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side.
And as I wait
I'll rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with You
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love.
Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me.
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my eyes
In living every day
by the power of Your love.
This song made some sense to me a few weeks ago, of course the lyrics are powerful, and i know what it means but i got a personal understanding of it and i find that to be rather profound. I won't try to analyse each line of this beautiful song but i just want to point out something here.
What i see here at states we can be in, i was very encouraged when this was revealed to me. We cry out hold me close because he's near, and we're near but what about times when we are afar off? We ask him to draw us to his side, bring us near to him again. It doesnt matter where we're at, he's hands are always open wide to receive his children. ...Whoever comes to me, i will not cast away... thats an absolute promise, but we must come.
~shalom~
Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side
What i see here at states we can be in, i was very encouraged when this was revealed to me. We cry out hold me close because he's near, and we're near but what about times when we are afar off? We ask him to draw us to his side, bring us near to him again. It doesnt matter where we're at, he's hands are always open wide to receive his children. ...Whoever comes to me, i will not cast away... thats an absolute promise, but we must come.
~shalom~
Sunday, January 14, 2007
traffic light
So we were going back home and came to the traffic light going near MD motors and it was chaos, the intersection was grid-locked and the rain was coming down gently, the traffic lights were not working. There we were in the van talking, if this was Nigeria, there would be someone orgnising the people, even if there was no one, there would be some kind of movement as everyone would try to navigate the impossible intersection and gain right of way. Well nothing was happening so someone, i think it was Christian who suggested that Valentine go and channed the traffic so we could go.
It started like a joke, we said he could come out in the papers, just like pastor. You see pastor was sharing a story of how when courts mammoth was opening, the number of people who turned up were like 2000, people all the way from Sibu came to form lines to get 28" tv's and other household stuff for a bargain. He and aunty mei were in the line they got up about 6am just to get some stuff and there was this old man who was limping and he said he felt sorry for this old man but was reluctant to leave is line, and this old man kept on limping towards the road, but he could take it anymore so he phoned aunty mei who was a few people in front of him and they went to this man, who was trampled by the people and broke his leg, by the middle of road and took him to the hospital. He was sharing that he came out on the papers for helping this man so we were encouraging Valentine to go help, half doubting if he would or could.
But he went anyway and it was apperent that he couldnt handle the cars alone so prince and Godswill {he's new} came up and helped him. They did a very good job, and before you know they got things into order. People were appreciative, some said thank you, some just hunked but no one gave us money! hehe just joking, but in Nigeria i'm sure someone would have given money, i guess malaysians are not like that. Anyway money was not the motivation.
They took charge of the traffic until the traffic people took over and we could go home. Its nice to see something positive come out from the Nigerian community in Kuching, alot of negative things have happened in the past but that was the past and things are changing, i just hope this kind of thing continues, not the blackout but the positive contribution to kuching and sarawak and indeed malaysian by foreigners.
We thank God la. :)
~shalom~
It started like a joke, we said he could come out in the papers, just like pastor. You see pastor was sharing a story of how when courts mammoth was opening, the number of people who turned up were like 2000, people all the way from Sibu came to form lines to get 28" tv's and other household stuff for a bargain. He and aunty mei were in the line they got up about 6am just to get some stuff and there was this old man who was limping and he said he felt sorry for this old man but was reluctant to leave is line, and this old man kept on limping towards the road, but he could take it anymore so he phoned aunty mei who was a few people in front of him and they went to this man, who was trampled by the people and broke his leg, by the middle of road and took him to the hospital. He was sharing that he came out on the papers for helping this man so we were encouraging Valentine to go help, half doubting if he would or could.
But he went anyway and it was apperent that he couldnt handle the cars alone so prince and Godswill {he's new} came up and helped him. They did a very good job, and before you know they got things into order. People were appreciative, some said thank you, some just hunked but no one gave us money! hehe just joking, but in Nigeria i'm sure someone would have given money, i guess malaysians are not like that. Anyway money was not the motivation.
They took charge of the traffic until the traffic people took over and we could go home. Its nice to see something positive come out from the Nigerian community in Kuching, alot of negative things have happened in the past but that was the past and things are changing, i just hope this kind of thing continues, not the blackout but the positive contribution to kuching and sarawak and indeed malaysian by foreigners.
We thank God la. :)
~shalom~
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