cny 2007

CNY 2007 is looking up, so far i think its going to be specially memorable this year granted some of my friends are no more here, moving on with their lives and probably most significant is my visit to eilyn's home.

I dont know what to expect even after she's told me what to expect i still am quite nervous. I know its the right thing to do and i've been wanting to do this for some time now but CNY seems to be the perfect time for me, i think. Pray for me...please :)

Someone called me an Introvert and even though she's correct; i tend to keep things to myself and hardly share with anyone but i've been thinking about it since then and basically my dilemma is this; introvert is what i am, i can't change that {or can i? should i?}. My biggest concern is when it gets in the way of reaching out and being used by God to touch someone's life. If its a hinderance than i might have to re-think if i want to continue like this or change.

But then in changing, what do i become? More like someone i'm not familiar with or have bits of myself with a different approach to things. Its just tricky for me i think. Yet have i really changed from who I used to be?

My sister called me saying she can't believe i could go on stage and act a drama, and true i wouldnt do that under normal circumstances, and my family know that more than anyone else but i dont know if its growing up or God changing things in me but i find i can do that {i mean act abit la}.

So if anyone is reading this i'll like to ask is my personality a hinderance to you? Be honest. :)