to the guardian of my soul

Oh guardian of my soul, vanquish these tempests in my heart for I am unable to fend them off by myself. Bring me to your calm streams and let me listen to their gentle flow. Restore to me strength and fervor, may I delight in you, complete, lacking nothing.

Bring me to conviction and free me from guilt. May my conscience be always clear before you. May your peace be my comfort. My your mercies never seize on my behalf.

Let the paths I tread be those you have shown, and when I place my feet amiss let your love guide me back. Forgive my many sins, and lead me in the path of everlasting life. May I know you as you are.

Its been a while :)

-ONWARD

my searching

I've been reading this book By Searching by Isobel Kuhn and its been very interesting. Its a really old book and narrates some of her proving of God for herself. This was way back in the 1920s so the English is stimulating. I think its a good read whether you believe in God or not. And when I say proving its not the same as testing if God exists but more of a 'i want you to be real to me God' and a 'i want to have my own experiences of you God so please reveal yourself to me'. I think its necessary to have these experiences because times will come when you start to question yourself. Doubt is a terrible thing.

One thing though. I see at the time that it cost her some of the things she likes to get to know God in a more intimate way and I guess thats where the problem lies for a lot of people. Would I give up my games, twitter, facebook time to get to know God more intimately? Is the whole experience worth it? I'm not done with the book but she says it is.

-ONWARD

more of the good stuff

Someone posted on Facebook or some where that the new year is not a reset button and I agree. Nothing will change until we take the right steps to make a change.

I'm particularly grateful this year for everything I have and don't have. This time I didn't bring my laptop with me to Kuching because of the screen problem and I've really missed it. But not having it made me read more and gave me the chance finally to pick up guitar. Now I want a guitar to keep playing. Interesting the way things turn out.

Here's to hoping the new year will bring even greater joy, peace, full measure of mercy, hope, goodness and love.
-ONWARD

this and that

Now
Kuching. table tennis. monopoly deal. bak kut teh. reading: the kite runner.

In a while
bbq.

This week
iscf dinner.

Next week
year end camp @cameron highlands
christmas carol @the spring

-ONWARD

false assumptions

Today has been really good. Everything I set out to do has been done. One thing I notice is that despite being a last minute kind of guy, I make a lot of assumptions that are not always correct. So in reviewing the way I handled things I think it would have been better if I just made arrangements ahead of time.

Another thing I'm beginning to realise is that there are almost always last minute setbacks. It has happened so much that I always expect and plan for it. It doesn't mean I dont have faith that things will go well. I actually do, just that I don't like to be unprepared to face these unplanned situations.

I've always tried to be as independent as possible. And today I realised that there's a limit to how independent you can be. We all need people and even though sometimes they are not always reliable as much as we want, its easy to let it go when you realise you're no better. I thank God for everything that was accomplished today. It makes my trip down to Kuching something to look forward to even more.

-ONWARD