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First let me apologize for all the trouble i've caused, moving the blog and everything. I'm so sorry.

Whats going on?
I don't know if anyone else feels like they have no time to themselves these days but its funny how most of the time i think i have is not mine, its either i'm doing this or that. I used to have the time to do whatever i want, go out with friends and enjoy their company and just be there but now, i feel like i'm saying no a lot and i'm not sure how they feel about it.

This evening i had to apologize to alan my housemate for not going out for dinner with him, he's been asking me all week and i've been like i can't not because i dont want to but just simply can't. I feel sad la. There i am again.

So Whats going on?
Well as some of you know i stopped blogging here because i thought it was not fulfilling the purpose why i started it in the first place and instead became a place where i get all phlegmatic and emo. But i realised that since moving its not been easy to keep in touch with different people. I don't go blog hopping again and i miss that. So yeah, life is full of ups and downs and i've definitely had my share. Long story short, myoffering continues, reborn if you like.

What about the other blog?
I'll still maintain it. Wah two blogs ah? Well yeah. tumblr offers a simple platform and the reason i moved there in the first place is because it suits the way i blog. Sometimes i just want to post a quote i found or a picture i like and not make an official post about it and its perfect for those kind of thing. But this will continue to be where i blog mainly.

I have 9 mins to do this. Happy birthday samson, you've been a real blessing to me and i'm sure a lot of those who have come to know you. You're an awesome man, welcome to the big 21. Will miss you when you are gone but I'm sure you will continue to be the samson we've all come to know and love. God bless you bro.

And God bless you all :)
~shalom~

thank God for today

What an eventful day. I thank God for this day. Yesterday i was so fed up i considered shutting down this blog because i thought to myself, whats the point? I set up this blog for two reason, the first is to give glory to God and be an encouragement however i can, and the other is to connect with friends and keep in touch with everyone and lately i feel i've not been fulfilling any of these objectives and if not for the crappy internet i get that didn't let me connect, the post would have gone up and that would be it but thank God for today.

So what happened today?
Well it actually started yesterday when we went to EYM and discussed about the life of Joseph how he had a God perspective in everything, we never find him bitter through all the misfortunes and wickedness that his own brothers showed towards him, he didnt let that change him, he didnt hold it against him, and he kept performing at his best even in the lowest demoralising situations where he would have sulked and felt pity for himself. He didnt, and he was a human being like me. We also talked about monuments and how they make us remember the past or something significant, and how we can build monuments that remind us of the unfairness and hurt that we go through. I remembered the sad messages i hung on to and how it reminded me of all the hurts and promptly deleted them. Its so true bah.

So what happened today?
Well today i got a taste of a Nigerian service in the form of pastor Gbenga. He was talking about knowing who you are, and how you cannot know who you are until you know whose you are. We belong to God yeah true but how much of this God do we really know? Can we stand like puny {I've been longing to use the word puny} David in the face of Goliath the Giant and call him names when the other more qualified soldiers are shaking in their boots? Can we make fun of the priests of baal like Elijah? I was really challenged today, but felt a bit worried for the Malaysians that had to listen to this typical Nigerian service, with the yelling and shouting but i feel they enjoyed Pastor Gbena's active illustrations :)

Where do you go from here?
I'm really tired of feeling sorry for myself, whats done is done, and there's nothing that i can do to change that. All i have is today, all i can do is live every today for God so that when i retire at the end of the day i can be satisfied that i'm living according to his purposes. For ALL THINGS work together for the good for those who love God, to them that are called according to his purposes.

My offering stays...

~shalom~

my offering

You know there are times we make promises to God concerning commitment to his course and, there are times when the word of God speaks so personally to us that we just cry, and then we make decisions to change and lead better lives?

Pastor would say that genuine love and care can do more to draw people to God than the best sermon, and its true people dont care how much you know unitl they know how much you care. The ministry of a christian, and by ministry i mean the whole serving life of a christian, is one of weakness. Michael said that and its true, if someone slaps you in one cheek turn the other one, if a soldier demands you carry his gear for a mile, carry it two miles. Give to those who ask and dont turn away from those who want to borrow. {matthew 5}

It seems that we can achieve more with little effort on our part if we just obey the word of God and not try to figure out what it could have meant, if its practical today, and start to doubt and debate. Why am i saying all these things?

I have set out to glorify God with this blog and other blogs that i am involved with, to be honest and to give my life as an offering. Sometimes words like that sound nice but the true meaning can leave us in a state of lack. What is my offering? Its not to complain and criticize, jesus never did that, he was not found arguing instead he just went about doing the will of God.

Long story short, the more you get to know about what it means to follow christ, the more humble you become, i'm not saying i'm humble in anyway, but i strive to be all that jesus is and to give him the highest glory and praise. If this doesnt make sense then dont bother, i'm like that sometimes but God understands, he always does.

Jesus i'm sorry for going my way and drifting from the pattern you have set for me, i acknowledge my wrong and i want to change, help me in my weaknesses and strengthen my strengths that i may be a vessel you can use, its all about you anyway. Let this blog be an offering to you and nothing else.

~shalom~