such a letdown

One of the best things about Malaysia is the number of public holidays there are in a year. This Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday are holidays and there's another one next month. Friday is technically not a holiday but most people won't bother going for classes. I think the lecturers also feel lazy to teach. The good thing about the break is that it gives me time to really rest and take a break from all the hectic nonsense that is school life.

This holiday won't be a rest holiday because smart and evil Curtin has scheduled all my tests after the break. So I better be studying if I know what's good for me. I can't also go for Isaac and Audrey's wedding in Kuching, something I've been looking forward to since the last wedding I attended in KL. Its a big letdown and I feel very sad to say the least. I don't know how to express my feeling concerning this matter but as the popular resign goes, what to do?

I ran out of things to say.

-ONWARD!

my aged computer

I've been having problems with my computer lately. There's never a dull moment with this thing. It overheats a lot and gets really slow when I play facebook games. I have a feeling this is because most of the games I play on facebook are flash games. It could also mean that this laptop that has given me a lot of problems is nearing the end of its useful life. Or the fan is just clogged. Whatever it is I think its about time I got a new computer. I just hope that this piece of crap I'm using at the moment does not die on me when I need it the most.

As a temporary measure I've disabled flash on chrome. Just type about:plugins in the url bar and there will be a list a plugins you are currently using and a link to disable each plugin. I think I'll have to actually turn off my computer when I go to bed also. Lets see how much more life we can squeeze out of my aged computer.

Its funny I was just going through all the posts I've made about this computer, from when Ben, my previous computer died, to the decision to get a dell, and all the weird issues I've been having and compared to Ben, Delia has been a handful.

-ONWARD!

where there is hope

There are days when you just want to scream and shout and let it all out there. This was one of those days. Its the end of week 6, choice were made. Time will tell if they were the right one.

Today I learned hope keeps you alive. Not the wishing hope but the expecting hope. You can go through hell with hope and come out of the other side still standing.

Be strong and courageous.
-ONWARD!

choose marriage

I was reading this article on the economist about the decline of marriage in Asia and noticed a trend not just in Asia but around the world.

More education has also contributed to the decline of marriage, because Asian women with the most education have always been the most reluctant to wed—and there are now many more highly educated women.

Why is it not possible for a woman to be successful in her career as well as in her marriage? Why must one have to suffer?

I know there are many people who simply don't believe in marriage because of all the failed ones they see all around but I think that marriage is a beautiful thing. Someone said that getting married is the most unselfish thing you can do.

We are a generation of selfish people. That's the reason why no one work things out anymore. No one digs their foot in the mud anymore. We flight when we should fight. And while momentarily it may seem like the right decision, time unveils our mistakes.

Of course I'm generalising here but look into your life and convince yourself that there is some truth here.

Anyway its just me ranting away. I miss writing. Sometimes I wish I could just talk instead of type. Maybe some day but for now given the choice, choose marriage.

-ONWARD!

My heart is overwhelmed

My new favourite song.
-ONWARD!

stand

It is well. I can love because I know how much you love me. Even when I don't reciprocate it. I will look towards the hills, where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth. For salvation comes not from the east or the west but from the Lord. Whose report shall we believe? We shall believe the report of the Lord. For we work not by sight but by faith. By strength shall no man prevail. Without me you can do nothing. And having done all this to stand. With my eyes will I see the reward of the wicked. Nothing shall by any means hurt me. I shall live and not die and declare the goodness of the Lord. And when the Lord brought back the captives to Zion, we were like men who dreamed dreams. And David encouraged himself in the Lord. Be strong and courageous. Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning. The steps of the righteous are ordered by God. I write these to you that you may know that you have eternal life. He who drinks of the water I give will never thirst for out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water.

I usually don't remember verses and chapters but I know the words. It may seem random but its not. Every time I get discouraged or offended these things just well up from inside. It is well with my soul.

-ONWARD!