I've not done this for a while. In this life no one has it easy but I think if we are honest you can point out some of the nice things that has happened. Some people accredit these things to God, some just accept it, others say its karma. I belong to the first bunch of people.
A friend asked me a while ago if I would do it all again, would I have come to Miri and without thinking about it I said yeah. I'm not one to explore the other possibilities of alternate life decisions. What if this, what if that... its irrelevant. But coming to Miri gave me immense opportunities to serve, to meet a lot of people, to discover some parts of me that I probably wouldn't have had. Was my time wasted? I don't think so. As much as I would like to be out there doing great things, I've come to learn that its not speed but fidelity. How long can you last? What is the quality of your life? Are you prepared for what is ahead and until I am I'm not going anywhere. Its not like I purposely refuse to move on but I believe that my life is part of a grand master plan from someone much wiser to teach the great a lesson. I believe that immense good will come out of every bad thing, every disappointment, every pain and shame I have felt, I believe it, and its my hope.
Not to be sidetracked but I want to thank God for not giving up on me, even when I have not been good to Him, but still, in a world that loves to judge and punish, His grace is refreshing and His love undeserving. I thank God for seeing me through a lot this year. I may not be where I need be but I'm not where I used to be and that's progress. Doesn't have to be big, it just has to be.
-ONWARD