looking back

This year has been very very eventful. Kind of like riding a wild horse. Today in church i was reminded to take time to look back at my life and see if God has been good. Maybe I can see things a bit more clearly so thats what i'm going to do. This post is a work in progress.

Ok so the past few days my internet time has been limited that why i can't update. I'm back in kuching and have been occupied with stuff.

I've been thinking about it and i guess i want to thank God for the everyday blessings. For a place to live, for friends, for food to eat everyday, for health. I've been a while since i went to a hospital because i was sick. I still get flu every now and then but nothing serious. I thank God for the opportunity to serve in church both in kuching and miri and also in vcf. I count it as a privilege. And finally i thank God for my family, for keeping them safe and healthy.

-ONWARD

dream fighter

I just like the music, its energetic and its japanese :p and although they're no wondergirls, they're not bad. Dream fighter by perfume.

-ONWARD

avatar movie

Avatar basically means an alter ego. Yahoo has this thing where you can create a virtual you and fill it with a nice background, style your hair and what not. Same idea as the movie. But in the case of the movie, the alter ego is biologically engineered to look like the Na'vi the natives of planet pandora where an obviously american corporation has base and mines unobtainium. Cool name if you ask me.

Without revealing too much i must say its a nice-ish movie. Its almost 3hrs long so be prepared if you want to go see it and you should. There's a lot of cg in the movie. So much that i wondered why they didn't just make it an animated movie like titan ae. There was something about the water, i dunno it felt weird for me like it was not real.

I probably should wait before publishing this because i really don't know what to make of the movie. There are stuff going on that i don't know where i stand on them. This has got to be the strangest thought on a movie i've done but i will say this. Its a very engaging movie and watch with your eyes open and your brains working. Questions some of the way things are done and let me know what you think. As ratings go its an 8/10 for me.

-ONWARD

real talk

Routine. has been the story of my life these few days. It sucks staying back in miri now when there are less than a hand-full of people here. Everyday its the same thing. Kind of like living each new day in a replay of the previous. And there's a possibility i'll be spending christmas alone, huhu.

Onset insomnia. is what i have. I don't know how i got it, i don't know how to lose it but for weeks now i can't sleep until its 5 in the morning. Well except for sundays where it takes considerable effort - changing my alarms, asking someone to wake me up, actively staying awake, to keep me upright for the most part of the day. Although i feel drowsy all through the service. This is bad.

Had an interesting talk with my mom this morning. Even though she's thousands of miles away i feel like she's right here. Mothers are a blessing. The past few months have been rather difficult for me, personally. I know what you're thinking, its not THAT. Its just... you get used to something even when you know its not the way it ought to be but...adaptation? Anyway i miss having someone talk to me, i mean real talk. it can do wonders for a man.

Well where ever you are, i want to wish you the best of the season. Merry Christmas :)

p.s the title of this post was suppose to be 'you should read my book' - you will never guess ^^

-ONWARD

i want to be beautiful

First of let me say i like this video. One for the jazz that's playing in the background. Two because it gives me something to talk about.

I got it from the Body Shop Malaysia facebook page. I know the majority of Body Shop's customers are female but they have some nice things for guys too. Certainly nothing like what we see in the video.

I was watching out of curiosity because i've never seen it done before. I must say it looks like a lot of work for a girl to sit down and go through all these stages. With different brushes and colour tones, fake eye lashes and stuff. It almost like an art how you apply these. Half way through i thought to myself, what if she pokes herself in the eye. I can imagine something like that happening to a n00b. Certainly if i tried it that would happen. Kind of the same as wearing contacts but thats another story.

I was watching and even before she gave the little grin and eventually a smile at the end, i was smiling. Girls love to look and feel beautiful and some times its because they have someone to be beautiful for. So next time your girl makes the effort. Try to appreciate it :) a word or two would be nice.

On another note

I'm still working on the site. Its not as easy as i expected. Merry Christmas.

-ONWARD

somethings never change

With the advancement of technology and the changes we perceive, its good to know, no reassuring that somethings never change.


-ONWARD

children of God

Read this this morning.

Though we are all God's offspring by creation, we are not all God's children spiritually. He is God, the Designer, and he desires that all people would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him.

Quote taken from the book know what you believe by Paul E. Little.

-ONWARD

something's up

I've tried on previous occasions to redo this blog myself and have not succeeded Its something that i feel i just have to do, for the fun of it so after wasting two weeks of my break in maple land i have decided to rewrite the code for this site.

The sketch is complete and i am happy with it. Next comes the hard work of actually coding it. Hope everything goes well :)

-ONWARD

visions

These eyes see joy

they see laughter

they see moments so beautiful, words fail.

These lips tell stories

of a life's day

of time well spent

of memories shared.

These hands are weathered

they tell of toil

of hardship

they hold steadfast

they never let go.

-ONWARD

in ways i can't understand

When You say no i get sad

When I don't understand I ask 'why'

When I'm silent,

when I walk away,

when I forget

You always remind me,

I'm right here,

I will never leave,

do better now my child.

You love me in ways I can't understand,

so much that I feel ashamed

You know the end of every chapter before I begin

and You guide me accordingly

I wish I can love You the way you love me

but at least I can be grateful

Thank You Father for Your love for me.

You know I don't deserve it.

-ONWARD