what i need

Most times i only come up with a title after i'm done typing. Anyway.

On friday after my presentation, photoshoot wah like model now hehe. Went to SIB for a talk on responding to God's call and this pastor who's about 60 was sharing about his experience in the ministry. From what i gathered he has been serving for about 30 years, thats almost as long as i've been existing. And he doesn't look his age. He still has full hair, still energetic, very animated when he speaks you can sense the excitement in his words. I dunno why i notice these things but i do. Its the little things that matter to me.

Well he was quite worried that not enough people are answering God's call to ministry and shared that there is a lack of people in specific roles, there's a need for teachers, preachers, leaders of small and large groups of people, church planters, evangelists, missionaries, educators in christian doctrine and so on. I couldn't help but wonder if i was ever called. I honestly don't know what i'm good at. I know i like to encourage people but beyond that nada.

One thing thats important, which he stressed more than once was that christian ministry is not something you go into when all else fails. You know when you don't think you fit into anywhere in the world you go to bible school or something. He gave the assurance that you will not last. 

Without reharshing everything he said, there's one thing he said that really made sense to me. God does not give us what we want, he gives us what we need. And i thought about it, i want a lot of things, i want a psp, i want a new camera, and a portable camera, i want this and that and travel to here and there and enjoy my life, i want a good job with a good wife and a lovely home with two boys or one boy one girl or you know i want a lot of things. But God only gives us what we need. Question is, will i be satisfied with what God gives me, or will i always seek the want? Am i content even though i don't get all those nice things? If i never get a mac will i be content or will i continue to strive until i get it. Where do you draw the line between ambition, looking forward to something and being satisfied with what God has given? Its something to ponder on.

~shalom~

P.S its interesting that psalm 23 says the lord is my shepherd, i shall not want. Just thought i would throw that in.