ahem

Its been almost 2 weeks since i left Miri. KL has been fun for the most part. I enjoy the people at Harvest Generation Church in Subang. If you're in the area, looking for a church, they come highly recommended. Thank God for John for putting up with me. And it was great meeting up with Shellyn, Ruth, Barney and Aunty!!! Haha hope she doesn't read this. It was also nice meeting up with my school friends for almost a whole day. And some long time friends. Bumped into my old former housemate at Sentral.

Two weeks was enough for me to grow tired of the KTM. But you know its a new experience. I won't get to ride on a train when I go back to Miri. No more delays, super packed coaches and women only middle coaches. No more trying to balance in the unstable centipede. Yup sure will miss it.

I think this will be the longest I've spent in KL and as I was sharing with a certain animal, its nice to visit but I don't think i'll get used to the life here. The people here are... different, sometimes can't tahan (stand) them. Or maybe i just don't understand. Anyways I like the pace of life in Sarawak, have never been a city person really. One thing that irk-ed me a bit was when I tell people I study in Curtin University, they're like where's that and i'm like in Miri, and then they're like Miri??? Sarawak? hello? Its like Curtin does not exist, is not an option. Made me wonder how those west Malaysians found out about this little obscure University. And why on earth they went 'there' ('there' is a synonym for Sarawak) to study. I dunno, I felt a bit annoyed. Not sure why.

Haih seems like I'm complaining a lot. Ok ok. KL is great. I'm going to miss Starbucks at times square. Its like i need to go there each time I come to the west. Nothing special, just something I have to do. Yeah i'm weird like that.

I'm bored so everything I say is just out of order and seems random. Spent the whole day indoors. I need kaki to jalan jalan =(  ok enough.

Going back to the land of the seahorse this Friday. Hope i dont miss my flight. Ahem. :p

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privileged

Blogger now has stats. I've been seeing some of the pages people who come to this blog end up in and one that made me smile was this one where I decided to stop blogging here. I've seen my fair share of drama over the years.

Everyday is like an adventure. I go to KL Sentral almost everyday now. Standing in the KTM trying to keep my balance as the train moves has become almost routine. Today or rather yesterday we went to Lowyat plaza, my friends wanted to get some stuff. Sigh. Every time I go to lowyat I want to get a psp but every time it doesn't seem to be in my budget. Later we went to eat. had one of the better tasting kueh teow I've had in a while. Thai style kueh teow, spicy goodness. My if it wasn't so not cheap I won't mind having that at least once a week. Tsk tsk.

There's actually a lot I wanted to share but I'm very sleepy now and can't really focus. Oh yeah we went to this Burmese church in Putrajaya, they served us Burmese tea, it was really nice, had a unique taste and then we had mee with coconut oil, again very unique and my favourite watermelon :) then we started talking about denominations and the differences and stuff like that. This guy Samuel (not actual name, dunno if I should use his real name or not) was sharing about life in Burma and how the government discriminates against the very few Christians in the country of mainly Buddhists. And I didn't realise there are many tribes in Myanmar and they speak different languages and stuff. He was saying they needed missionaries in the country and then he shared how his family was saved and how he was the answer to the prayers of his parents and their promise to God was to serve him if he gives them a boy :) wonderful how God works huh?

All these made me appreciate my freedom. I've never really known religious persecution in this way. I mean there's always the teasing and stuff but that's nothing compared to what christians in some of these countries face.

Almost related to this, earlier in the day I was thinking, or rather a thought came to my mind. I was thinking how hard life would be if I didn't have any money. Imagine spending my whole day thinking how to get money to eat and take care of myself? I would not even think about having a mcflurry it would be like impossible. Made me realise how privileged I am, made me say a prayer of thanks to God. The other day I was in starbucks waiting for my friend and this pretty girl comes along, she could not speak and gave me a card saying they have things that I could purchase for a certain amount. Usually people think these are scams but you know there's this softness in your heart? So I got this.



Thank You Lord for everything good I enjoy. Holy Spirit please remind me not to take things for granted and to learn to give to others as I have opportunity. Thank You for your blessings :)

Totally unrelated, listening to tommy emmanuel at night while you write a blog post is a pleasurable undertaking :)

[update] just went over to tumblr and found this gif image. Thought I would post it here.

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O God you are my God.

I love this song, from Hillsong's new album A Beautiful Exchange. Something about Brooke Fraser's voice, awesome.

Today is the 4th of July, America's Independence day and my sister's birthday :) Happy birthday mma, I know you read this.

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on routine

"The man or woman who learns to make peace with routine responsibilities and obligations will make the greatest contributions in the long run."

-Dr. Raymond Buker

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relentless monster

Our lives are made up of seasons. Seasons change and sometimes these changes can be quite difficult to adjust to like people leaving our lives, or moving to a new place where you don't know anyone and feel tired to try all over again making friends. Whats they point? They'll just leave again right?

I find myself sometimes thinking about people, those that seem to be moving on in life, getting married, finding jobs and stuff and there's a tinge of jealousy and some disappointment in myself. Its easy to just dwell on that and feel sorry for yourself. I have my low moments and I'm not a super-christian. Far from it. (Hopefully I will share about that sometime) But what choice do we have but to trust that we have not trusted wrongly. That He that started the work in your life will bring it to completion even if it doesn't seem like it will ever happen, not in a million years? Do I have a choice? (VCF camp theme once.)

Its possible these feelings will never go away. I mean even if you get a job, there will always be people who seem to be more prosperous, are happier, or whatever. But I guess that a certain level of contentment and gratitude helps keep things in the right perspective. I don't know. I'm trying to convince myself that there's a better day. Fear is an evil monster. The picture that comes to mind is the Balrog that took down Gandolf the grey in the Lord of the Rings movie. Terrible monster this fear.

Sometimes life beats you to a corner just like when tom gets jerry cornered and poor scared jerry pinned with no escape musters the courage to face tom and give him a beating or atleast enough to run away and hide in a hole. I guess its time to beat back to stare the monster down, show them what you've got. Surprise yourself, relying on His strength all the way. The funny thing about this monster is that even after beating him today, he's ready for another fight tomorrow. Relentless monster this one.

Lord I know you have the best for me. Teach me not to settle for less,  go my own way, fight the battles that are yours. I pray that your word will beat down these monsters that bother me, and set my feet on the rock of your unfailing words. I receive your strength to take on these monsters everyday. mmeka nnam.

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