zee avi

Love her style.

~shalom~

the shy and the happy

I've been here for a while and have experienced some of what Malaysian life is like and as much as i think i know about the culture here, there are parts of it i may never know because i'm not a native. However there are some parts that foreigners tend to experience more than the native if not exclusive. And just to be clear by native i mean people born in this country.

For example, i was walking to school today and this kancil {another word for a really small car} went pass and someone in the car holla 'yeah akon' and i just looked and thought, i wonder if akon will ever be seen lugging a laptop on one hand, backpack at his back while looking for a way to carry his jacket. I just smiled in my heart.

I've been in a similar situation back in kuching, was walking back home from a friend

s house and this guy on the back of a bike was probably drunk and he just held out 'f*ck you' and i was angry for a while and thought to myself  he's just stupid.

The other day i went to the bank and this lady in the bank was really irritated by me. I think its because my particular transaction is not what she does on a normal banking day so its kind of well i won't say stressful, but out of her routine and causes her some inconvenience. Plus i think she's pregnant so its probably the baby's fault she's not in a good mood. I totally preferred the other man. Right after getting from the bank i realised i don't have any RM 1 note and i need the note to take the bus back to campus. 

After thinking for a while i thought instead of buying something i don't need just because I want a RM 1 note i would just ask the cashier there at boulevard. Should be easy right? Well not really, i approached the lady there and asked if she could split this ten that i have and she looked at me, not understanding a word i said and went away shyly smiling all the way to find her language expert to attend to me. For a moment i thought i was an Ang mo. What was it about what i said that she didnt get? Anyways this other lady came who looked more experienced with this kind of situation and asked what i wanted and i said i want to change this ten ringgit... and before i finished the lady_1 was pointing to a currency change kiosk right across the building, at that moment i knew i had to simplify to the bearest vowels what i mean and say it extra slowly so she can get it.

Finally i just told her, i want 5 RM 1 notes and 1 RM 5 note and she was like ooow. Then i thought to myself, i really need to learn this language. 

~shalom~

uncertain times

In the midst of all the uncertainty in the country at the moment, there's no need to panic or fear, but lets spend some time praying for Malaysia. Pray God's will will be done, pray against violence and loss of life. God hates that. Pray for peace and justice. Pray in faith, speak the truth of the word of God. It is well.

~shalom~

merdeka! (yay!)

On this the 50th independence celebration of Malaysia we went to the beach. Calvary had a baptismal service and there was pork to eat along with other food they made me, yeah thats right they made me try. Cannot say no one. All the aunties and uncles ah. Try this, try that one... But it was good la.


I discovered i'm fascinated by cloud formations. They're so beautiful with lots of patterns. So if you see me staring at the sky with a grin you know why.


By the beach, so many people came out to have picnics and enjoy the day off work


the beach. Didn't get a chance to play in the water but who needs water when you have bbq pork?


another view of the beach


playing with a rugby ball. I would have called it football if this was american and it wouldn't sound awkward but this is not american and it sounds awkward to call it football.

Later in the evening we went out for a simple meal near DPS. I ordered beef noodles with soup and the lady brought fork and spoon for me and for some reason i just felt wrong. I didn't feel comfortable using them anymore so i asked for chopsticks.


Not what you think. Its actually chinese tea in a deceptive cup.


close up shot of my plate


The mee was very good.

I know you love me
With regard to my previous post, i'm sorry with i caused a stir or scared anyone. I am ok just that sometimes things happen and emotions get the better of me.

I just want to say prayer works. It so freaking works. And don't underestimate the power of kindness to turn seemingly dire situations around. God is pure good. And He cares more than we ever can. 

I really thank God for friends who I can share things with and I really thank God for the family of believers that we have. Sometimes we can take that for granted.

I really like this song by superchick, We live.

We live by superchic[k]
There's a cross on the side of the road
Where a mother lost a son
How could she know that the morning he left
Would be their last time she'd trade with him for a little more time
So she could say she loved him one last time
And hold him tight
But with life we never know
When we're coming up to the end of the road
So what do we do then
With tragedy around the bend?

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

There's a man who waits for the tests
To see if the cancer has spread yet
And now he asks, "So why did I wait to live till it was time to die?"
If I could have the time back how I'd live
Life is such a gift
So how does the story end?
Well this is your story and it all depends
So don't let it become true
Get out and do what we were meant to do

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

Waking up to another dark morning
People are mourning
The weather in life outside is storming
But what would it take for the clouds to break
For us to realize each day is a gift somehow, someway?
So get our heads up out of the darkness
And spark this new mindset and start to live life cuz it ain't gone yet
And tragedy is a reminder to take off the blinders
And wake up and live the life we're supposed to take up
Moving forward with all our heads up cuz life is worth living

We live we love
We forgive and never give up
Cuz the days we are given are gifts from above
And today we remember to live and to love

~shalom~