Its been a while. I've found out one of the most difficult thing, at least for me is staying true to yourself. Let me explain.
We're all different in our own special ways. We have certain views of life and people that to a large extent, at least in the beginning is pure and right. For example, overtime you learn that even when you are nice to someone they may not return the favour and there's a certain disappointment when that happens but does it make you change, stop being nice to people? I don't think so. One way of thinking about it is to conclude that they have a problem they have to deal with but maybe the issue is how people's behaviour or reactions affect me, or you.
In the past few years I can see the difference in my life. Everyone says you have look out for yourself but sometimes that's not the right thing to do. Its this struggle between doing what's right for you versus not being selfish. Holding back when you should give, even if its not enough, is usually not the right thing to do, especially when the heart confirms.
Father you know me, I pray that I will not hold back when you're asking me to give. Help me not to always avoid awkward situations but to trust you and have faith that you can bring something good out of my fears. Thank you.
-ONWARD