let it die

I've been very restless lately, I don't know what to make of it. Something is disturbing my peace and I don't know what it is. Of course there's the usual things we all worry about and it has always been there but never really made me restless before.

The other day I was talking to a rather close friend and we shared a few life stories and I realise how un-different we all generally are. We all go through some of the same stuff and somehow we make it through all the nonsense. Some of us get to look back with gratitude at those impossible moments, others are not so lucky. Still life is good.

I was preparing for a skit for vcf and prepared to do something on the life of Noah. Most people know the story and the lesson behind the story but for me it was very refreshing reading through the life of another human being of whom God praised as the only man doing what was right in the whole world at the time. Think about it. One man in the whole world. Scary isn't it.

Last night I was listening to the book of Job. A great way I've discovered to read the bible is by listening. Bible gateway has audio bibles and you can choose who you want to read the word even though the selection is very limited but you can. And there's a variety of translations to pick from. Job again was another awesome man who God praised in front of the angels and even the devil when he basically came to God's presence uninvited. It was very... can't find the word how God had so much faith in Job. I guess you can say of course he knows everything but still its great to see.

On Sunday I was again reminded how God sees what we can become, and not what we are now. Pastor Hii shared about how when Jesus was born, he had gold, myrrh and frankincense instead of legos and squeaky toys because those men recognised he was not just a baby but a king and their gifts reflected that.

While there's optimism for tomorrow, we still have today to deal with and today doesn't look very optimistic. Sometimes I wish we can just skip and get to the good parts but sadly it doesn't happen that way. Today is messy and today sucks but we have to make the most of today so that we can get to tomorrow where its better. Or at least that's the hope.

Steve Jobs died the other day and one thing I learned from his life is that his work reflected his life. No one can separate the man from apple. Got me thinking, and I realise we are all like that.

Funny I started this post not knowing what to write. Exciting times ahead. This is it. To quote steve, "Death is the best invention of life" or something like that. So don't be afraid to let go. If something really needs to die, let it and let new life spring forth.

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The day Steve Jobs died

I woke up this morning to news that apple's Steve Jobs had passed. The BBC was reporting it and apple.com had his picture with 19955 - 2011 on the left side, it was all over twitter.

It was not a hoax. I usually read a lot of websites in the morning before I even brush my teeth and everyone had something on Steve. The more I read the more emotional I got. I'm really saddened by his death, a true visionary. I actually had tears coming out of my eyes, its ridiculous because I've never met the man and most of his products are so expensive I don't even own one.

The world will miss you Steven Paul Jobs. My condolences to your family.

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F chord guitar

Why am I posting this? Well I'm learning to play the guitar and for a long time I've been, like he said avoiding songs that require me to play the F chord because I'm not used to it now. Well now I'm learning a few new songs and they have this darn chord and its nice to know everyone struggles with this stupid chord. There's also the 'B minor' chord but that's another story.

So if you're also struggling with this chord, well cheer up, with loads of practice we will get better. I personally prefer the old school F chord that he showed because it feels firmer, more solid I guess.

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Are you happy?

After reading this article, I asked myself that question. I'm not happy. I guess the question that follows is why not? I have a dissatisfaction with the way my life has turned out. Don't get me wrong, I think all things considered I am very priviledged but things could be better. Whether its a test I should have done better or a situation I could have handled better or my badminton game that does not seem to be improving, these things get me frustrated and I'm not the kind of person that releases all that in one intense blast of anger. I rationalise, and try to understand why things are the way they are.

{update}
This post has been on draft for a while. I thought it was time to publish.

-ONWARD

The good things

• Waking up to a new day
• The sound of my guitar
• Burger for supper
• Bike rides
• 2pm naps on Sunday
• A beating heart.

-ONWARD!