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-ONWARD

quote from a friend

Nothing is forever, only God is.

Simple words but it resonates in my heart especially at this time.

-ONWARD

you are near

I love this song from the first time i heard it back when i was still in kuching. I remember i had a blank cd lying around and asked my friend to burn it to cd for me and i borrowed a cd player from michael. I hadn't bought Ben yet. Everytime i hear this song i am reminded of my old room in pleasant courts where i dealt with being alone, missing home and family and how i managed to pull through.

These few days i've been a bit under the weather. Its a good thing it started with my last class for the week and i'm getting better. Been spending more of my time at home, not doing anything in particular, trying to rest and being careful about what i eat. Last time i felt this way was when i had chocolate mint cake a few months ago. In these few days i can say i have felt peace. There's not the usual chaos that greets every week. Sure i have a tutorial to prepare for this monday, i have to get people to volunteer to be security tuesday and wednesday, there's the meeting this saturday and then the student council proposal thingy and so on but i feel peace.

Church was good :) I've got to say my best part of sunday service is the singing and then the message, everything else is good but not as good. I guess its true, we really need to be reminded more than we need to be instructed and I was reminded of my responsibility to myself to know God in a personal way. I've been slacking for some reason but God has been faithful.

It feels good doing the right thing, going against the norm. It may not be popular but in the end there's the peace that you have done what is right.

-ONWARD

i made some changes

As you can see. This is not the original design i had in mind and was working towards but this its close enough. Blogger has this thing where you can design your own template just by making a few choices. You will have to login using draft.blogger.com I don't think it works on the regular blogger accounts yet but its really cool so try it out. Here's a video from the blogger team showing off what's possible.



I may continue on my original template if i have the time but for now this will do.

-ONWARD

on learning

I love to play badminton. Since i discovered the game i've always wanted a chance to play. But you can entertain yourself by just watching me play, i suck at the game. I miss the shuttlecock a lot, i don't hold the racket properly and i've developed a habit of hitting my knee when i smash real hard.

There are some days when the suck factor is higher than others. After such days i ask myself why do i even play this stupid game? I don't play the game to become a professional or anything just for the fun of it yet i feel frustrated when that return hit the net. How come? I guess i push myself a lot in certain areas. I feel after some time of playing this game some aspects of my game will improve or maybe i'm so focused on being better i don't see the small improvement? Have I improved at all? I dont think i can say that but really thats how we learn.

In this 21st century we are so used to things that are fast, internet, computer and so on that we expect everything to be like that. And to be fair we are expected to learn fast, adapt fast understand fast or be left behind. Somethings really take time and the time is not a constant. Granted there are people who learn really fast but not everyone is like that.

I guess the observation i'm trying to share is that if you do something often enough you will get better at it. It doesn't matter if you see it or not but there's always improvement depending on the amount of effort you put in. And its nice to celebrate or at least acknowledge these improvements, let them motivate you as you move on to other things.

-ONWARD