coming from a guy

"You held a certain fascination when you were beautiful, delicate and untouched. Now you remind me of my father's Arabians: Rode hard and put away wet. I don't want you anymore and I can't see why anyone else would."

Quote from gossip girl and coming from a guy its important to see this. For those girls that stay pure and avoid the promiscious life keep the fascination because once its lost, sorry.

~shalom~

they are worshipping God

Look at their faces oguchi, they're worshipping God.

Ms Hannah said this to me while we were at the choir concert performance thingy at mgc pujut branch. It was like one of c.s. lewis' books where he's like a narrator and yes i could see the difference between just singing and worshipping God and i realised i've not been doing much of that lately, worship God. 

I thank God that i can join the choir and remember what it means to truely worship my God. Tonight was a blessing :)

~shalom~

on gossip girl

Ok so i feel rather ashamed to admit this but i have been watching gossip girl. The first time i watched was when i dled for manda and then thought it was very sissy the way the super rich in NY acted and carried themselves. The superfluity of their lives and the extravagance of almost everything they do. Its really a girl's show but then my second encounter was in melissa's house after a bbq we all guys if i may add gathered round her pc and watched an episode. I remember saying i won't watch it again but you know better.

It so happens my housemate has it on his external harddrive and since we share files on the network I could watch when i am bored. Now i'm not that dedicated to dl for me but there's this chinese invention called ppstream where you can watch most of the latest american tv shows which is where i watch these days although still in s1.

So far what i can say is that i'm glad i dont come from that type of background. I'm not sure how true the show potrays real life but a certain hilton comes to mind and then there are little doubts. The show shows the depravity that money and the love of money brings, the cost in relationships with parents and children and the unhealthy habits that these young ones grow up with. Lets not forget they are all sweet sixteens or less well atleast in s1.

It kind of worries me, i can't imagine having to parent one of these children and its not just the children the parents themselves have, pardon me, screwed up lives, there's this intricate web of "pasts" between them that makes life complicated and rather awkward, a lifestyle of bad decision and wrong choices without any regard of the consequences.

I dont want to sound like i'm judging because lets face it, we all have "pasts" and again pardon me screwed up lives albeit in varying degrees. For me its purely educational or atleast thats my excuse to continue watching.

~shalom~

loved by Him

From one of my favourite psalms.

...Where can I go from your spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If i go up to the heavens, you are there; If i make my bed in the dpths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if i settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. If i say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me" even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you...

Sometimes i wonder how i would be if i were not a christian. What my life would be like. I probably would be miserable and get into some kind of addiction, find a way to escape the real world. Maybe cheat people and have no sense of integrity. Or maybe i would be a nice person doing good things for people, feeling good about myself. There was a time when i was young and after sitting outside the house observing the world go about its daily business, i honestly thought at that time, if everyone was like me there will be less problems. Now i know thats a dangerous thought.

One thing i have come to know is that God loves diversity, thats why there's not just one color, one type of plant or animal, why there's male and female, why there are people even twins with different characters, attitudes and beliefs. Different kind of languages and cultures. But whats beautiful is when all those differences come together for a singular purpose. If that purpose is to worship God then its a very powerful thing.

Today I am grateful that God saught me out and chose to save me. I know i don't deserve anything i get from him but i think its important sometimes to remember what we are saved from and what we are saved to. And its important to stop sometimes and reflect on what really matters. 

I may not be where i ought to be but thank God i'm not where i used to be. :)

~shalom~

friend and friends

She's nice, she has a good heart and they mean well but i made a promise.

~shalom~