apologies

Something happened to me that really broke me down but thats life i guess. I can't help but look on the bright side. Nothing on this earth is permanent, everything is temporary thats why its nice to have a very loose grasp on them so that when they are taking away they're not ripped off your hands.

I'm sorry for closing off the blog, i needed to exhale. But one thing i will continue to hold on to is the word of God, since its never changing, its a perfect solution to a world thats constantly changing sometimes to our disadvantage. And the knowledge that God is good, pure good. And everything he does is for our good. So its easy to trust him even though nothing makes sense but even though I have to trust him because i have no other choice, i think its better than whining and complaining and sulking because life is not fair and people make wrong decisions because of fear.

I just hope that my view of people do not change because of this. I just hope that you will keep me pure in heart o-tou san.

~shalom~

:)

Break me
mould me
beat me
correct me
chastise me
but dont leave me
You're all i've got.

Hope deferred makes the heart sick,
but when dreams come true,
there is life and joy.

If Jesus was not manipulating and exploiting our hope, if he really did break out of his burial wrappings, push away the stone, overcome the guards, and walk out of that dark, terrible grave then all of us have the choice to embrace a hope that, in the end, will not let us down. {more}

worried

I took this picture yesterday in the morning. It was a difficult shot to take because the bees won't stay still but i managed to get this one. Its nice to watch nature and see how they just go about their lives with such confidence and boldness that all will be well. And there's no worries or doubt at least you don't sense that from observing them.

And how come we cannot be like that. Even after Jesus says don't worry its very difficult not to because of the demands on our lives, time and talents/abilities. The thought of responsibilities and how they will be met can keep anyone awake all night. Yet Jesus said don't worry about these things, they will be taken care of if you make the Lord and his Kingdom your primary concern.

Today Lord i want to worry less. I want to trust you to bring me through and make the ending worth all the hard work and sacrifices. I want to trust you.

~shalom~