today i feel

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Something really nice happened to me today so. Arigato o-tou-san.

~shalom~

not the same

East
west
distance
separation
busyness
here
there
life
reality
innocence
worry
doubt
control
when
you
me
hollow
shell
change
night
day
yes
no
maybe
whatever
hope
faith
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someday.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my thought
point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

~shalom~

interesting week

Hi there, how are you doing? Last week has been interesting. One of my lecturers was not available. He had this seminar he was attending so we didnt have his classes all week. Since he takes two out of the four units i'm taking this sem, there was not much classes to attend.

We got an extension on the assignment until this week friday. I just hope i can figure out how to do it and pass up before the due date. There's also Artificial Machine Intelligence test on either wednesday or thursday. If there's on unit i'm worried about its this one.

This thursday we have the pleasure of having the part 2 of boundaries in dating...Vcf organised and seems we can't get enough of it so there's going to be a sequel. Most of the things that were discussed, i've already known either through personal experience or by observing or other sources. But its good to be reminded.

Had the opportunity of celebrating three birthdays at once on wednesday. We went to siamese secrets for the birthdays of michael, gordon and galvin. And then on friday we were at dynasty hotel of gordon's actual birthday celebration. Its funny, on that friday we went to his house, opened the door of his room and well try to imagine. You are in your house unaware of whats going on outside and all of a sudden after talking the phone and relaxing in your bed the door of your room opened and these three guys come in and all at once scream whooa!

My the expression on his face still makes me snicker even now as i write this. Its classic. Needless to say he was frightened for about 2 seconds. Good thing he didnt call off the dinner after that.

Today after church we went to imperial to buy some belated birthday presents and saw this guy, well this man. Be was quite nice, came up to us and said hello. Of course he's a foreigner, from New Zealand on holidays here. Was trying to find which way west malaysia was. He asked me if i knew where New Zealand was and i said of course half surprised at his naive question, who does he think i am.

Turns out he works for the police in NZ and told me there are a lot of Nigerians in China. Yeah i learnt he's been to china and there he found them doing 'some business' if you know what i mean. He kept bringing it up then i half angry admitted that there are people like that but not everyone is like that and he agreed, he didn't talk along those lines anymore.

We had a nice chat and also found out he's been to brunei and was wondering where else he could go from miri. He wanted to go to Kuching by bus bus changed his mind after learning its a 13hour journey. He was with another lady who works in Brunei and asked us to visit NZ anytime. Royal Brueni is cheap he said, 'you can work as air hosts for the airline, good money' he said. Nice chap.

Today in church pastor hii was talking about facing our fears and difficulties, and it made me remember the time when i had a big fight with my gf and how i learned not to give up on the things that are important to me. And you know we will always face difficulties and running away from them is not the way to solve the problem because any problem you run away from now you will face it again until you are able to overcome it. Its just the way the world is designed. So its pointless to run.

It was a very good sermon and i was blessed by it only for some reason it was a very good time to sleep and a saw a lot of people sleeping. I too tried hard to fight the sleep from my eyes.

Father I thank you for everyday and all the stories you place in my days and how you help me things. I thank you for making me me and not someone else and how i am weird and special in the same way. Father remind me that I dont need to be like anyone else for you to accept me and let me remain in your love forever. Thank you for my week and the week ahead, lift everything to your care in Jesus name. Amen.

~shalom~

how would you describe yourself

Saw this video on youtube and kind of thought what if that question was posed to me. How would i describe myself? Well here's what a few people said.



I guess for me, no i'm not evolving, i think i'm constantly being modified if that makes sense. And i guess curious is not out of place too. How about you?

~shalom~

cry to jesus

Chris Rice - Untitled Hymn (Come to Jesus)
Weak and wounded sinner
Lost and left to die
O, raise your head, for love is passing by
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus
Come to Jesus and live!

Now your burden's lifted
And carried far away
And precious blood has washed away the stain, so
Sing to Jesus
Sing to Jesus
Sing to Jesus and live!

And like a newborn baby
Don't be afraid to crawl
And remember when you walk
Sometimes we fall...so
Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus
Fall on Jesus and live!

Sometimes the way is lonely
And steep and filled with pain
So if your sky is dark and pours the rain, then
Cry to Jesus
Cry to Jesus
Cry to Jesus and live!

O, and when the love spills over
And music fills the night
And when you can't contain your joy inside, then
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus
Dance for Jesus and live!

And with your final heartbeat
Kiss the world goodbye
Then go in peace, and laugh on Glory's side, and
Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus
Fly to Jesus and live!

I like this song because of a few reasons. Its a hymn-ish song and i like the way you can relate to it no matter where you are in your walk with God or in life. Life is not fair sometimes and we hurt, and people that can be so nice can turn and be so mean knowingly or unknowingly.

I also like it because i find comfort from it. When we are stripped down to our bare essentials, when life takes away more that we anticipated, when the road seems lonely and unbearable. When there is sadness in the midst of exceeding joy, when the world's not all it should be. I think we can find comfort in knowing that we have a father who loves us unconditionally and even though its easy to take it for granted, its something we have as his children that no one else has and its good to take time and reflect on all the good things he has done.

Psalm 121

A song of ascents.

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

~shalom~