Hello, it's me.
I always want to write more but can't seem to find the time. Do you ever feel like you want to do everything all at once? Like it's such a shame you have to choose to do this thing, and that thing and not all things you are interested in, and there's not enough time both in 24hr cycles and the length of days to exhaustively explore all your interests? I feel that way all the time. It is both good and bad. Honestly I think it's terrible.
More and more I'm learning the need for focus. Focus means saying no to all the things you are interested in, passionate about, and picking one thing to do repeatedly until you have mastered it. Focus means saying no to a million things so you can say yes to one. Once I think about it, that's basically how the world works. A man chooses a woman out of the multitude of women and says to her, will you marry me, she also chooses him out of the multitude. Out of the millions of sperms swimming, only one finds the egg and fertilizes it. So why is it so difficult to cut everything else out and fixate on one?
Well when you choose one, how do you know that's the best one? How do you know that your happiness is maximised by the one you have chosen? Would choosing another one be better for you in the long term or not? There is risk involved in choosing. You never really know for sure if you have chosen the best. You think you have, you hope you have but you really don't know for sure. To know for sure, you need a way to evaluate all the different options and come out with the best. Humans are not capable of doing this, because we are bad at knowing what is good and it takes so much time to explore each option than the length of our days. This stuff is the preserve of God. So what do we do?