i'll take you back

I'll take you back always
Even when the fight is over now
I'll take you back
Even when the pain is coming through
I'll take you back.

This song brings back lots of memories. Interesting how memories are tied to music and smell.
-ONWARD

never stop

Was just chatting with a friend and we talk about what our favourite music is, we do this from time to time, and i realised he hasn't really changed. He's the same drum whacking, music loving, outrageous friend that i know. All this from the kind of music he's currently in to.

I have a feeling i've said this before but repetition never killed anyone. And in many ways this is me talking to myself, reminding myself to never stop. Don't stop doing something that is good. If there's value, or substance in it, carry on. Yeah things happen that still our passion and discouragement comes and sets doubt on fire and we feel well thats not me, or i'm just not good at it. Never stop doing what is good. We like the things we like for a reason and I think that in this world, God put things for us to learn and enjoy so lets learn and enjoy them. Thats all.

-ONWARD

blogging is dead, lets all tweet

Everyone should be on twitter. I update more there than here so follow @mario64 on twitter. If you like.
Exams start next week.

-ONWARD

Fred Hammond - You Called Me Friend (Lyrics)

I love this song so much.

-ONWARD

all things considered

Sunday service today was extra special for me. Not because pastor made a joke at my expense. Its always special to sing in church, I enjoyed it much more today. The message was spot on again. Thats one of the things I love about Calvary.

Bitterness
So all the nonsense that has happened in all these years have happened and it has changed who I am. I wish I can say for the better but time will tell. Bitterness is bad. It makes you pessimistic, doubtful and where there is doubt, faith is far. I have failed, I have disappointed myself and my family, I have hit bottom, I have asked myself, whats the point. I have lost the will to fight. What's the point? Things are bad, I have a dozen worries I have suspended thought on because I can't live that way. I think about the future, and wonder what it holds for me. Through all this its hard to keep faith. Its easy to blame someone and be bitter. But there's no future there.

In something like almost 10 years I've never been to a hospital for some serious sickness. Breezed past h1n1 even though my immune system is not the strongest, besides the occasional flu and headaches I've had excellent health. That's just a miracle. For all the time I've been here, I've not begged for money, and its not because I'm from a rich family or anything. I think its just someone up there sustaining me and my siblings.

Everywhere I go, there are people I know who are real friends, some family so i'm never alone in this land. I could go on with a lot of things that are good that I have enjoyed and continue to enjoy because of God's grace. Yes things are not ideal but when is anything ideal? If there's one light, no matter how dim, i'm going to hold on to it. Not giving up yet baby :)

Today I watched the last episode of Lost and it was nice to see all the cast together in the end after all they had been through in the island, the reunion of all the dead ones, finally time to reflect and thank each other. Everything seems to make sense. All the problems were just stories of survival and perseverance. Kind of reminds me of heaven.

Change my heart Oh Lord, make it ever new. Change my heart Oh Lord, may I be like you.

-ONWARD

Gabe Dixon - All Will Be Well - Live HD

Gabe Dixon band has a certain style to their music that is refreshing. All will be well.

-ONWARD

It might be hope - Sara Groves

Hope has a way of turning its face to you just when you least expected.

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