I know who I am.
I am a complex combination of experiences, skills, behaviours and idiosyncrasies that complement and contradict each other, all at the same time. I exist in this form in real life and that's perfectly fine. That's what it means to be a human being - you are seldom one thing, but a combination of many, many things. This is perfectly fine in real life, but as soon as you come online, suddenly it's no longer fine. One cannot simply exist like this online.
Social media platform algorithms require you to be one thing. Just one. When you show up as your real self, you confuse the algorithm, and it protests by hiding you and your content. You also confuse people who accidentally find you. They're so used to the algorithm, so plugged in, that they simply cannot accept a multipotentialite expressing themselves in full spectrum.
You have to look deep into your heart and think about the one thing you want to amplify out of the cocktail of potentials inside of you, fighting for expression, and show up as just one thing.
I find it maddening and extremely difficult to choose just one. Do I show up as a Graphic Designer? As a Creative Director? As an Illustrator? Canva, Photoshop, Affinity, CorelDRAW? And that's just design. There's book-keeping, administration, video editing, content writing, SEO. I could show up as any one of these, and in real life, it's fine but online, it's not.
"The solution is easy", you say, "just pick one". And herein lies the dilemma: which one?
And why in God's earth do I have to pick at all? I don't want to! And now I'm getting upset. Who designed this system anyway? Why do we put up with it?
I have a hard time choosing, and it makes me sad. I feel like when I choose one thing, the rest dies. I don't want to kill my dreams or suppress my curious mind.