think about his love

The past few days have been kind of strange for me. I've been having 'good worries' and some not to good worries but in all of it, God is in control.

In a few weeks or months, I will be leaving kuching and I remember talking with Joshua and telling him bethany is like family to me, was talking with eilyn and telling her that kuching is like my home and its kind of strange leaving this place after such a long time, so many friends to go somewhere else and start all over again. Well not really all over again but it just won't be the same.

In my time here i've really changed within, but i still dont talk much so its difficult to keep a conversation going if you dont talk much too, we just look at each other and smile once in a while hehe :p I am fearfully and wonderfully made!

After my diploma in Electrical/Electronics Engineering i had a crazy idea to do something else. Was not sure if it was the right thing to do but i was sure I was not going to continue in engineering. So i made applications and to my shock i was accepted. {Victory number 1}. As you can imagine I was thrilled and just fell down to my face and kept repeating thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you to God. If you know me, then you know i'm not a very good student, i only get a few As and once i missed my exam so i had to take it again in the next semester but this was too much.

Now i had to explain to my father...oooooooow! Kept procastinating and putting it off until I got an email from the man asking me about my admission and stuff so i explained to him everything. I was very scared, didnt know what to expect from him, was very unsettled but part of me was at peace. It was like whatever it is i'll take it. He replied with a positive response and i was like God thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you.

I really dont deserve anything good from God, but somehow He just decides to keep the smile on my face, so when you see me smiling all the time you know God has been very very GOOD to me. I feel there is more to come, more surprise as long as we remain in him. Part of the S.M.S we are doing has this very in matthew i think, or john hehe not sure now but it says If you remain in me and my word remains in you, you may ask whatever you wish and it will be given to you. In another part it says the ernest expectations of the righteous will not be cut off. And my favourite part of the bible, the psalms has this in the 139th chapter about us... Every moment of our lives was laid out before a single day has passed. Every day of our life is recorded in his book.

So today, think about his love, think about his goodness and thank him :)

~shalom~